Monday, August 20, 2007

True Love

True Love by Wislawa Szymborska

True love. Is it normal is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions but convinced
it had to happen this way - in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice? Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected principles,
and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?
Listen to them laughing - its an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!

It's hard even to guess how far things might go
if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered? What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?

True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.

Let the people who never find true love
keep saying that there's no such thing.

Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.

Moi's View:

Szymborska, Polish Nobel Prize Winner – 2003 my encounter with her is somewhat ‘coincidental’ so much as that I don’t believe in coincident. :) It was the movie Left Turn, Right Turn that leads me to Szymborska work – the Cantonese romance film, stars Takeshi Kaneshiro (Vae’s Bf – LOL!) and Gigi Leung depicts how fate intertwine with our lives and play a large role in it even if we like it or not. The movie was based upon Szymborska ‘Love at First Sight’ something I held close to heart because of the circumstances of life I was in and dealing with then.

As much as fate always plays, we had another encounter thru her work ‘True Love’ early this year – this poem is provoking in every way and notice what you notice from the work – it is truly unique. True love – is it really necessary? How many souls broken by it? How many of us given up hope on it? How many of us turn a cynic by true love? Yet time and time again - I still believe in it. Does it exist – for me – yes it does (ya me the hopeless romantic). Why? Because I believe – “What God put together, no man can divide”.

Jalal ad-Din Rumi wrote this and I find it very beautiful -
“The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere; they are in each other all along”

May all of you find your true love along your journey in life because nothing is ever too late when you encounter true love. :)

p/s: Her work 'The Three Oddest Word', one of her nobel prize winning selection - is profound for contemplation should any of you love poetry that way.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Angel Teardrops

I can't comprehend my own feelings at the moment -

Angel Teardrops
by Kathleen Sheppard

My guardian angel, once careless and free,
flew into the clouds and lost touch with me.
Her tears were cold and wet, falling on my face.
Her smile had left us without a trace.
Her angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared,
I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare.
I knew that angels, often content,
were very special presents that God had sent.
To see one so sad,
so afraid,
so alone,
had made me weep while the cold winds had blown.
Her wings lost feathers,
comforting and soft,
falling from the stars,
floating aloft.
Her pain was felt throughout the land,
to feel true misery is impossible to stand.
I prayed so that when her hurting stops,
I'll be able to taste the angel's teardrops.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Full Plate

Moi and the Famous Chef!


Moi and Tj Leo President Cheng Inn

TJ Leos - ya we were drinking thanks to PP Raymond! ;) hahaha!

Union Leos - 16 - they make me feel 16! *wink*

Just finished reading: Harry Potter – Deathly Hallows, Julia Quinn

Currently Reading:(1) Kybalion(2) Entering the Castle, Caroline Myss (3) The One – Kathy Freston

Just watched:

RUSH HOUR 3 – this is pure laughters, like just so good I laugh non stop. Well to me I think there really isn’t much depth in this movie. The line’s pretty predictable and the villain easily identify from the start. Yet is a good movie for rest and relax after a long day’s work. I think this is also one of the movie that successfully insulted every nation, countries and culture they can relate to. Those jokes are funny to max that we are still laughing during supper and when we meet up again in the weekends! *cheeky smile* Fun seeing JoJo and Grace dancing after the movie – they were like so high – Jo especially – been a long time since I seen such joy in my sister!*wink**wink*

RATATOUILLE lol.. ya I know I am so lucky to be invited to attend the movie premier in KL last week – so I am not going to spoil it by blogging about the movie. Thot I have to say is a profound and powerful ‘little’ cartoon. I can just resonate so much with this cartoon. I always find cartoon with lots of life hidden meaning to it and the last cartoon I can ‘feel’ and relate so much on a mental and emotional level was the Brother Bear years ago. However for me this one is just so profound, every word heartfelt and penetrating.

Want to watch: BABEL

Just listened: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible

Now listening: Andre Bocelli – Amore

This week has not been easy. No where being the usual luxury of being Jennifer Lim. *wink*wink* Been pack up with lots of work, working till late on some projects. Two companies under my direct management are moving at once securing 3 projects in a week amounting to million dollars – I am so happy and proud. As much as I am very very excited about the whole thing is somehow wearing me out a little mentally. Hehe. To top there so many new business opportunities and ideas that came along the way – faster than I can study and research upon them. ;) However it reinforces my trust on the opportunities the market has got to offer and we just need to have the open mind to explore and accept it. I wish somehow I got the resources (time, people and money) to create all these ideas to reality. It is also very inspiring to know what people are doing out there.

I am pretty impress during a family meeting recently that my dad actually said this to me and JoJo – “just do it ler we going to sell about concept only anyway” – wow my father understands about ‘concepts’ and branding – I am speechless. He does not complain about the $$$$$ we all budgeted into promotions anymore and been pretty encouraging with ‘proper branding and marketing strategy’. Even Terence was laughing in amazement when dad tries to talk about branding with him and JoJo during their usual ‘Saturday breakfast’. So anyone out there praying your parents would change – they probably will you know! Hahaha! Mine just did! *wink*

This week’s highlight of course is none other than my membership interview with PSC. However, is such a highlight that Guan Aik and I are going to just laugh ourselves out with whatever happened during that night. *wink**wink* Sorry some things are really not for public reading. Still I wanna thanks Guan Aik for being such wonderful company that night.

It was also fun attending Tanjung’s Anniversary again – think the last time I attended one was years ago before I left for Australia. Good to see some old faces and new ones as well. I somehow manage to surprise most of the uncles and aunties. The Leos were so hyper these days it is so good to be in their company again. LOL I use to think we are hyper – gosh you guys should see them. Hehe. Is nostalgic though for me to look at them. *wink**wink* You guys really rock!

Was off in KL during the weekend - it just worn me out - mentally, physically and emotionally. Yet I say is all worth it - most of all for the awareness and awakening or probably something in its surface as material as the Louis Vuitton buying experience but in it all contains much more than that - what I wanted to say - mhm - is that - that my darling my love - you are worth it - more than that LV !! *wink**wink*

Monday, August 13, 2007

The romantic me

Inside Of Me by Jay Scott

If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart

If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me

In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much

Knowing I can talk to you
about any and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring

I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you

Though with each new day,each sunrise
we can't know what's in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more

So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how blessed I feel
to have you here with me.

Your eyes, your smile. Your touch, your kiss.
Your promise, your words. Our everlasting bliss.
- Penelope Bell -

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Smell of Roses

Was in KL again for the weekend. Mhm.. and was staying in friend’s house. When I got into the house there were two large bouquets of roses in the house – one dark red bouquet in the living room and one pure white bouquet in the dining hall. So so beautiful. I took a little while to just be silent to appreciate the roses and I realize with such a busy schedule is a luxury to be away in somewhere that I can just slow down and smell the roses. Do you all know that the red rose’s scent is very much different from white rose?

Roses brought me back to memories of school days – Martin taught me how much life can be learned from the rose itself. To me The Lily is the symbol of elegance; purity and perfection ‘a destination’ while The Rose symbolizes courage, strength, boldness, endurance and perseverance ‘a journey’. While a Lily makes dreams a Rose make it human.

Some roses Quotation/Lesson that I learnt and always love:

'Beauty without virtue is like a rose without scent'
'The fragrance always remains in the hand that gives the rose. Be a rose which gives frangrance even to those who crushes it'

‘Do not watch the petals fall from the rose with sadness, know that, like life, things sometimes must fade, before they can bloom again’

'Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense. So he that dares not grasp the thorn shoould never crave the rose'

'The rose speaks of love silently, in a language known only to the heart.'

‘The red rose whispers of passion, And the white rose breathes of love;O, the red rose is a falcon,And the white rose is a dove.’John Boyle O’Reilly

For me, I am glad that day I “Take time to smell the roses” but even after all this “A Rose is a rose is a rose”. Thank you for the roses.

Am going to get some pure white roses for my room this week, it will be a sweet reminder of the smell of roses.

Thursday, August 9, 2007



Saying goodbye is never an easy thing
But you never said you'd stay forever
So if you must go,
Oh, Darling I'll set you free
But I know in time
We'll be together
I won't try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in My Heart I know
Love will lead you back
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days our love
Will lead you back
One of these nights
Oh I'll hear your voice again
You're gonna say
How much you miss me
You'll walk out this door, but
Some day you'll walk back in
Darling I know, I know this will be
Sometimes it takes some time out on your own
To find your way back home
Love will lead you back
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days our
Love will lead you back
Cause I will try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in My Heart I know
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong.
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back
Love will lead you back
Some day, I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
It won't be long
One of these days our
Love will lead you back

I heard this song played and the words move me. The universe never stops to amaze me. How much we are all inter-connected to one another. The song describes some things that I am going thru now and how a soul I met allows the space for me to walk thru it. At the same time the universe is asking me to allow someone I love dearly to do the same. Is a kind of liberation to be able to do that – to truly experience what unconditional love is and what often only with words we say ‘If you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was’.

LOL. It is not triangle love I am talking of here – it is nothing romantic or actually everything romantic - *wink**wink* I just wanted my sister to know I love her and am prepare to treat her like an adult – setting her free to do what she wants to do – trusting her in her decisions in life and business - thot sometimes habits die hard that we love controlling each other so much. I am sorry. Maybe I am trying too hard again to make the relationship between us work – I am a little frustrated with myself – wish I am better in expressing when it comes to her. I love you Jo.

It reminds me what Hesse, a German-Swiss poet and Nobel Prize winner says ‘Some of us think holding on makes us stong; but sometimes it is letting go’ and yes this is the time. And for someone who takes 15 mins to show me that, the 15 mins that meant so much – because ‘action does speak louder than words’ – Thank You, I want you to know how much that 15 mins meant to me and showing me what it is like to truly set someone free. *smile*

Little updates & some Q&A

Little updates & some Q&A –

Sunshine – We last talk when I was in Perlis, hey your dad was not there ler so don’t get to tease him about missing you. And you my dear - Cloudy weather huh? ;) Sick – poor thingy! Of course the good news you are getting to go to Queensland soon – so lucky! Better get well soon and like I say - if you need someone to take care of you - please come home - cos your mom is around! HAHAHA! Just kidding! love your site – lots of picture and stories about your new life (actually some part old – craving for Japanese or good food, CARs CARs and CARs *wink**wink*). Of course we should write on bubble milk tea vs TPTL!

MeiMei CheChe – hottest girl in SF! Blog is up – - sorry I was a little outdated – I could not access your blog earlier so I continue to leave comment msges on my own blog! Happy Belated Birthday anyway – wishing you ever lasting love, beauty and sexiness just the way you always are! ;) Iphone - so nice – I want a MAC PRO – then an Iphone to match would be just great. Hehehe.. greedy!

Milly – Oktoberfest *blink**blink* - we must do that – and it is always you and your ‘Germanese’. Ardo taking me dancing? LOL - I am stopping over Macau too. I’ll definitely have lunch with someone else, the last time I make lunch appointment with you I ended up roaming around Chung Wan alone. Oh how’s Jeremy – still in Sydney? I was browsing and I saw those pictures we took in HK last year – good memories! How’s Elsa and Paul and the dog – hehehe – tell them I miss their cooking and the turkey – LOL okie okie – I am looking/begging for an invitation to go back and celebrate Xmas in HK this year with you guys… pretty please? *wink**wink* Since Vae got a new place – I heard people’s house - resort type like – exact description of the owner herself “great view facing the mountain as if in Switzerland when the clouds cover the peak – is like living a holiday/dream home” – wahlau eh I also want to stay – I can take care of the orchids. *hint*

Another good news – someone is relocated to Shanghai and relo package include a house and chauffeur – so the fact now I got an additional home to go too with a chauffeur to drive me around – hehehe - *devious mind working* I’ll very likely fly from HongKong to Shanghai – and someone is working very hard to rearrange schedule to be in Hongkong with me! So lets party!!

JA – got your msg late last night but I was in a meeting - sowee. Been few weeks since we last talk – the last month we manage that few emails - hopefully get to talk to you soon. Update update – need to ask you a few things too… and yes I suppose I am seeing you very very very very soon!! Can’t wait so happy!

Wednesday, August 8, 2007


Just finished reading: Harry Potter – Deathly Hallows (love it – only part I don’t like it that too many characters were killed – realistic but for a children book? Nah! Nikko so want to kill me when I was discussing with Wilfred about the book the other day. Hahaha!).

This week’s novels week– spending time reading Julia Quinn and I gotto say ‘Yes Girls the books’ great!’. We will have so much fun talking and laughing about it. Almost close to my favorite romance author of all time – Dame Barbara Cartland. Of course, this is a modern type of romantic novels set in those olden times but you girls have to read Barbara Cartland because nothing comes close to romances like that! *wink*wink* Guess there is where my ‘hopeless romantic-ness’ build upon.
Currently Reading:
(1) Kybalion
(2) Entering the Castle, Caroline Myss – On the 1st Mansion now – talks about the conflict between the outer and inner self. Beautifully written and explain – mom and I shared so much laughter upon it. Also talks about spirituality versus Mysticism – the journey into the soul.
(3) The One – Kathy Freston (when you have someone to share the thots on – priceless)

Just watched: Transformer (okie okie… YOU WIN! Happy? It is truly a good movie – build up was good, graphic was impressive, storyline was beautiful, expression and spacing of the emotions was terrific and I simply just love the way they deploy the jets) Well is Michael Bay so I should not be surprise right and this time he did not over do the scenes. Lol! Well okie – someone is so enjoying this – thanks for literally buying the tickets and forcing me to watch? Okie okie.. I walk in voluntarily and can’t stand that smirk on your face next to me the whole night – still thank you my dear – is a terrific movie and glad I don’t have to missed it.)

Teaching of Abraham by Esther and Jerry Hicks – Law of Attraction. I just have to say this is one good documentary/movie that you all MUST watch. I won’t spoil the thing By writing more – because something in the world must be felt and experience with the heart. *wink*
Want to watch: RUSH HOUR 3 and BABEL

Just listened: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible
Now listening: Andre Bocelli – Amore

Is a rather speechless week – time just passed, lots of things happen yet everything is falling into places, clearer and clearer. Is a very very blissful kind of feeling. “Blissful” mhm - ‘When you follow your bliss… door will open where you would not have thought there would be doors, and where wouldn’t be a door for anyone else’- Joseph Campbell. That is this week’s flow. Is nice when I make a commitment just a week ago to have a more solid ground, lots of time spend on my own reflecting, contemplating and writing.

Ya I know, I know I say to a lot of you lunches, dinners, teas, meeting up and dates is crazy how my schedule is going at the rate of two week ahead of me – and now having to take time of for myself too – just want you all to know that I am very grateful for the patience and understanding. Please be assure that I did not disappear or ignore or forget anyone – is just that I needed this time to ground my vision and direction. I am just so glad to say I am seeing it – so much clearer than before and the experience of it is ‘BLISS’.

Spend one weekend in Hatjai and Perlis – was a wonderful trip. Lots of food, shopping and fun! The Regent of Perlis was there with His consort at the dinner on Sunday – I have to say I am impressed. Living in Penang I am so not use to the idea of a royal family and its protocol. However, after this experience I am to say I am impress with the Royal family of Perlis – for the down to earth being with their people kind of character, the loyalty shown by their entourage and the joy and sincere presence they extended that night – dancing and laughing with us. It’s truly a wonderful night. The princess is so beautiful and elegant. Is like a fairytale. Nice!

The week went by just a nice mixture of work, social and solitude. Was fun lunching with the Master Chef himself in Soy @ G-Hotel – a joy of knowing what’s real good food – *wink*. Thought we came to conclusion is hard to be low profile in Penang – so – good luck trying! Hahaha!

Ajisan Ramen is open!!! Lol.. yes yes yes!! Pork Pork Pork!!! *wink* JoWei, ST and Nikko had so much fun on my ‘porkiness’ and it just end nicely with that large glass of A&W rootbeer. Hahaha!

Had dinner and jazz at Audee’s on Friday – oh I got news I got news – Paku is playing on Friday night – they are very good and guess what Audee had the recipe for Mudpie!! Terence is just going to laugh at me and with the look at my face when Audee announce it! Lol… is the signature Singapore mudpie that I love so much – sigh writing of it makes me feel like eating one now! Hehehe! Mudpie..mudpei…mudpie…. *laughs* I still remember Michael promise to cook me this mudpie in Melbourne - hey where's my mudpie? hehehe!

Also had lunch at Spice Garden Rasa Sayang – food is good and I love the ambience. Is a long time since I spend a lazy afternoon on Saturday up there like that. Very nice peaceful feeling. Hehehe! Reminds me Eugene Bro used to take us 3 monsters up there for c-o-c-o-n-u-t on Sundays and watching sunset. Nice!

The rest is all my time and work. Work progressing so well – I am amaze with the opportunities the market is preparing itself for. I am constantly impressed with the new ideas, concepts and inspiration that are creating in this world. I am so intrigue by it. Proud to be or rather have my part to play in it. My boss been driving me to think into a deeper level and I am slowly grasping more concepts and ideas. Ironically my work is highly P&C, as much as I wish I can share it with more people. Well well – cest la vie!

Moi? – La Vie Cest Belle!

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Khor Kheng Lee

His MMS this year

Well well, I used to think - to know how many true friends we have is to calculate how many friends I can call at 3am in the morning if I needed to make that call. However, in today’s 24/7 global communication world and all those ‘night owls’ being awake late at night somehow my perspective towards this statement change. Although that, it is still consider rude in any of our culture to call a non close friend too late in the hours at night – therefore, those who are given the privilege has certainly secured their position as being important friends.

LOL – so why the long story? Because not many people in Jennifer Lim’s life can call her at 1am in the morning and say this “hey I have been reading your blog and waiting to be mention – how come never write about me one?” haha! And mom being there her ‘quota’ session in my room the conversation goes like this:

Mom : So late d who’s that?
Me: KK Lee
Mom : Wah Ah Lee long time never see you d ah, when you taking aunty to clubbing?
Me : Wei my mother ask you when you taking her clubbing?
KK Lee: Aunty noler very long time never go d, now only stay at home (however, each time I went to the clubs, and that is RARE I still see Ah Lee there) *wink**wink*
Mom : Then why so long never come see me?
Me: Wei my mom ask why so long never come see her?
KK Lee : Becos aunty both your daughter also don’t want me d…
Mom : Like that ah… so when you gonna…
Me: My mom ask….

Bla bla bla… LOL –end-

So even mom can find it amusing when he call at 1am – KK Lee – you gotto be something man!

So here I am writing about the man who wants to be written about – Mr Khor Kheng Lee. How feels happy d or not? *wink**wink*

Mhm.. Kheng Lee – is in every word of what is describe as a ‘true friend’– loyal, reliable, responsible, caring, thoughtful and someone who is always there 24/7. Our friendship takes us back exactly 10 years now – wow – now I realize is 10 years, we were oriented and inducted the same year into the same Leo Club – and after that the world is ours! Till today we are the in same Lions Club, cracking the same joke over and over again yet never bored about it. What makes KK Lee so special to me is that for the last 10 years he has never forgotten my birthday – even I was in Aussieland or North Pole – somehow or other the birthday message is faithfully delivered on that very date. This year the message came in MMS format in the morning and about 11pm he calls again and says “Happy Birthday dear”. I said, “Thanks, I got your mms this morning” and Kheng Lee says, ‘ya but better make sure, don’t want to break record and then later if forget your birthday sure ‘kena’ lifetime nagging’. Lol !! It is the ‘fear’ motivation now I know. *wink**wink*

So now, since you ‘force’ me to write *mhm I hope I remember what you ask me to write. Hahaha. Just kidding! Just kidding!* these are the reasons that makes KKLee such a special person to me, my family and all the friends we shared –

1) A fiercely loyal friend

2) Available at 24 hours – driver, dinner, accidents, “lost keys” *wink**wink*, listening to my grumbling, sad, depress, happy, celebration, drunk, hungry, bored, heart break, festival, clubbing etc etc etc

3) The only guy who took me shopping so that I can buy for him his first prom date’s dress, hand bags and shoe – and I pick her flowers too. Yalor never send me flowers also!!

4) Take my parents to clubbing – see how many people can do that. Haha!

5) Take me clubbing and be my ‘bodyguard’. Hahaha! Trust me – Kheng Lee is one of the most influential figure around the clubs in Penang and don’t under estimate the word ‘influential’ is goes beyond free, need not queue to get in and reserving the best seats in the club. *wink**wink*

6) Being super protective

7) My 3am mamak mate!

8) Cook ‘cola’ chicken for my mother and buy roti for her!

9) CNN network news. Including where my ‘father’, ‘sister’ whereabouts. Hahaha!! I enjoy this one most I guess!

10) Being there for me at my lowest points of life – although I’ll get scolding for crying in public area – emotional me – ya he is never the ‘I manja you’ type! Sigh!

11) Taking his Gf(s) and potential Gf(s) to my house so my mom can see! *wink*

12) Entertaining me with his sparing partner – Milo Tan who is now in the UK probably went into his PhD d cos no sound no shadow since January this year. Mhm I kinda miss those jokes of hokkien mee, nasi lemak and milo. -sigh-

13) Disappearing a few months off my life and somehow reappear again. Yalor now I realize you n Milo Tan like to play ‘chip more – now you see now you don’t. So the very answer why you weren’t written about in this blog is because you disappear the last few months I started the blog! Lol!!

14) One of those rare person who would do crazy stuff like drive to Genting after clubbing at 3am n then take a spin and come back!! That was so so so cool!!

15) Was there at every dinners and projects I organized – finishing all the food! Okie and doing all the work too!

16) Was there at every of my birthday parties to blow balloons and pick rubbish after that!

17) Was there so that we can all throw him into the pool after those parties clean up!

18) Was there to book my every trip to Pulau Paya!!

19) Was there to send me off when I leave for the country to Aussie – those ungodly hours in the morning – well he is indeed there 24/7.

20) Just by being you and being there!!!!!

K ler… long enough d lor hor? Hehehehe… thank you dear… for all these 10 years of sincere and honest friendship. These 10 years of genuine concern and care. Thank you!!

p/s: I am going to foresee that after this, my left hand, right hand, sai lohs, sai muis, left leg and right leg is going to msg and call me and say – Tai Ka Che only Kheng Lee important ler.. What about us? Lol…. I surrender – you girls and guys are all great souls and it never make me more proud than to have served together with all of you. :)