THE NEW CHAPTER

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A Perfect Day in Bangkok – Truly the Land of Smiles

Woke up about 10am this morning after arriving last night. Was a great sunny day and after a nice warm bath I had ‘daddy’s home cook breakfast’ – the joy of traveling with a father who is an excellent cook! ;-)

After breakfast we got ready and hit downtown to Yaowarat – Bangkok’s Chinatown and where I will go in my every trip to Bangkok without fail. So you might wonder what attracts me back to Chinatown every time? My answer is simple : LOVE!

For in Chinatown Bangkok lives this wonderful man that I love very very much. LOL! My Thai Goddad! He lives or rather has a shop in chinatown for the last umpteen years. My dad and my goddad had been childhood friends and he has me as his goddaughter since I was 2 years old. My Goddad is by far the best father in the world of course beside my daddy darling! I have introduced numerous friends to him and all of them love him in the very first instance – without failed. Some call him the Maitere Buddha look alike, some says he is such a grandfatherly figure – for whatever names he get – he is like one of the most generous man I ever known and he loves me a lot.

For instance one week prior my visit to Bangkok the last trip he had somebody to send some sweeten nuts from Hadtyai, mangoes from Supanburi and he brought a lot of stuff I love to eat. This time three days before my arrival he got some mangoes and keeps them till is rightly ripe for my arrival! My Godmom says he talks about me coming to Bangkok to everyone who visits the office. Indeed I am a very lucky girl!

So as we arrive as usual – godmom ordered our favorite noodle soup ( Chels will go crazy over this one ). This time I had a lot of fishballs to eat it with! *wink* Just as we finish the noodles the maids brought down several plates of mango sticky rice ( no doubt my mom and also Nikko’s fav ). As we are done with mango sticky rice, the maid then brought down a large plate of freshly cut mangoes and it is served with Goddad’s favorite tea – 409 – the King of Teas. By now I really needed a rest for my stomach so I ventured out for some accessories shopping around that area. I return about half hour later to find another of my favorite delight – ‘roti canai’ milk mini size wrapped in tracing paper – they are hot and tasty right out from the pan. With that comes another serving of freshly cut mangoes and 4 huge mangoes to take home! My stomach is in heaven that afternoon!

Coming home we got ready for Sukanya’s farewell party @ The Oriental Bangkok. This is another dining experience that I’ll never forget. Conde Nast Traveler wrote “If only all hotels can be like this” and I support every word it says. I have dine in no small amount of 5 star hotel restaurants around the world – Mandarin Oriental & Ritz Carlton KL, Peninsula & Inter Continental HongKong, St Regis Shanghai, Wynn Macau, Ritz Cartlon Half Moon Bay near San Francisco, Sofitel & Crown – Melbourne, Raffles & Mandarin in Singapore however really I have not quite experience something like The Oriental Bangkok. It is not only the food and the selection that makes the hotel outstanding – it is the finest in details, the warmth and attentiveness of the hotel staffs and the grandeur and charm that the hotels held for so many years.

It all starts from the moment we arrive at the door, as the guard open the door we were approached by an attendant. What can I do for you madam he asked and Jojo replied we are having dinner tonight at the Riverside Terrace. Well this is the point where the difference begins – instead of telling us how to get there or pointing to us the direction – he merely says let me show you the way and he escorted us all the way to the restaurant. I would say I am impressed.

Of course when we arrived everyone’s already there and we all exchange hello’s’ n each of us found our seat. I was seated next to mom and Kun Kurt while Dad’s beside Kun Bella and Jojo. I noted that even we are just having buffet dinner by the riverside, and there are almost 20 of us in the long table they restaurant never fail to set up the dinner table in a perfect table setting – the whole range from bread knife to dessert utensils. Even the water goblet has a small cotton sewn placement mat at the base to prevent the condense water from dripping onto the table.

The next thing we move up to start our buffet dinner. I selected some bread, salad, sushi and sashimi to start with. As I walked of the selection table, a waiter come forward and offer to carry my plate, I hand it over as he escorted me back to my dining table, just as I was to approach my seat another waiter was there waiting to put my chair out for me to be seated. The best thing was that it does not only happen to me but to the rest as well. I thought it was supposed to be a buffet dinner but I am truly amazed with how much personalization the hotel can put in. As Kun Kurt decided on the choice of red wine we are having on that night - the ‘correct’ red wine glass was place in front of those who chooses to drink – LOL – *wink* not only that the but the glass was placed very carefully at the correct position on the table.

The food for that night was great – the variety in its selection – meat, sauce, style of cooking ranged from Japanese – Indian – Western – Thai etc etc etc. I was totally in another heaven. It was a jazz band playing that night – the selection of music is those I totally loved; the sound level was I would call it perfect – just loud enough for us to listen and enjoy as well as soft enough for our voices to talk to each other.

My final experience was of course asking for direction to the toilet. I first asked a lady waitress that show me and tells me how to get there, just as I walk a few steps over another man waiter seems to know where I am heading leads me to half way and another lady shows me the way from there. The toilet very much like all the colonial hotels – has it own charm and beauty especially in the powder room.

The dinner started and ended in perfection. The one word I’ll describe it as – IMPECCABLE. The company was great – the conversation and jokes exchanged better! It felt like being home with all the Signity staffs. I love their work culture. They even call my mother ‘mama’.

I got to say – I love my life. I felt so blessed with the variety and choices I am always with – the enjoyment of simple local delights ‘mango sticky rice’ and ‘noodle soup’ at the road side stalls to the classy dining at The Oriental Bangkok. The love of close family friends which is similar to the love of suppliers and work related friends.

Thank you Goddad and Godmom, Uncle Chai for all the goodies I enjoyed so much at your place as always. Thank you Kun Kurt for inviting us along to your company’s ‘family dinner’, Kun Bella for sending us home, Kun Sukanya for your support and friendship rendered and all the staff of Signity who makes us feel at home in Bangkok with you.
Thank you God and angels from making my life as always – in your divine perfection!


p/s: Miss you Hong Hong – somehow when I wrote this I knew you will certainly be one of those who will enjoy dining like this. In fact when I was dining last night they played Sway and another song (it’s in the Susan Wong’s album) I thought of you. ;-)

The Long Pause

August 20 - last entry "True Love". Almost 2 months now - time really just fly - a good friend made a comment over lunch yesterday - "Mhm Jenn I notice your blog stopped at True Love - have you stop writing because you found your True Love?" *Laughs* This is the very question I am struck for weeks now that I have no answer to that question - probably like most people I am still learning to decipher myself. Life is becoming more and more interesting to me. I wrote a lot about 'love' - and somehow or other my love life became an interesting topic - or rather at my age it becomes everyone 'concern' topic for 'my best interest' *wink* Well so lets keep this part of my life mysterious for a little while more.

And the real reason for not writing for so long – really was merely the fact that I was not in the Country for the past few weeks. My traveling schedule for the last two months was like that

Singapore – Vietnam – KL – Melbourne – Brisbane – Gold Coast – Hong Kong – Macau – next Singapore

I’ll open a travel diary soon – soon enough when/if I settle down. Hahaha!

So if I don’t write about love, poetry, travels – what is there interesting enough to write?

Maybe I can start writing about food – was in Ferringhi Grill tonight – not the best time to be there – for my personal reason but still the Oyster Galore is now on- yummy – will want to do that – maybe next week. B-O-R-I-N-G

Maybe about work – mhm… nah… inspiration – here is something heartfelt for me for the past few nights -

Best Friends

Something caught my heart and soul these few days – something worthwhile to be pen down in words and recorded in my heart.

Godma is in the hospital – just finished with her by-pass surgery. She did very well and is recovering much better than expected. Is a blessing and for that I am very thankful. Yet was touching for me in a very special way that her best friend Aunty June was there sleeping in the hospital the night before the operation just being there for her. The gesture was very heart warming. They are 60ish and yet their friendship remains.

When I return home – I was stunt once again by this very moment – my mom and her best friend who is visiting from outstation sitting/laying so comfortable with one another in my living room watching movie. That instant itself – that very moment – at that perspective is a very joyful moment to savor. I stood that for a moment watching both of them – and a tear actually drop of my eyes for that moment is such a touching moment. When I return to my room for my aromatherapy – I spend the 2 luxurious hours reflecting of each of my best friend – and all my memories I gather, collected and shared with each of them.

‘Lucky’ – is what I have been my whole life. If people are thankful to be blessed by a good friend, a best friend I am very very super multiple extra lucky to be blessed with SIX best friends – each of them entering my life at a different stage and since then never left.

Of course Vae was the first to come in mind – the fact that we just spend some time together in HongKong last week. Our friendship started back in high school from a sleep over party at my house for New Year. Is like a romance itself that we stayed up all night talking till wee hours in the morning and ended up watching sunrise together on the 1st of January 1996. Vae is one of the strongest and toughest girl in the group. Is always to her I look for strength. She been there through the lowest point of my life – nurturing me to every bit I had left. Now that she has found happiness I am truly happy for her. Not only happy but very very very proud. Darling, this trip to HK you make me realize how much we both have grown – how much we both have been in each other’s life (btw I was there FIRST- *wink**wink*) - how much this friendship extend the love that is unconditional. However this trip is when I see how much you have grown wiser and for whatever choice you make –I’ll always be there.

Then of course comes Joanne – another high school best friend – our friendship happened in the weirdest way ever – becos we are actually classmates since primary school – however our friendship has always been a competitive one because we always one to out do each other in studies. However don’t get me wrong – being competitive does not make us enemy but best of friends. It does not stop us from doing what all students do – copy each other’s homework, exchange notes, studying together, doing projects together – however we still love to out do each other in studies. Hahaha! And Joanne is an exemplar of a role model for independence, leadership and beauty. She is the every guy dream girl. *wink* and if anyone thinks beauty without brains – I’ll advise you – don’t challenge this girl. Not ‘my Joanne’. Haha. So because she is always so smart, Joanne ends up my life counselor/consultant most of the time. Listening to me through and giving the most rational advice of all time.

The come my most organized, meticulous and fashionable Yen Wei. The only one who is earning British pound and could effort LV, Gucci, Bally present for her best friend here who is still earning Ringgit. Lol. Is my favorite joke with her. We met back in college day – first day of college – over a bowl of tomyam noddle at Penang Bowl. I’ll never forget that very day and very sure she will not as well. Being the most organized one I obviously traveled most with her including our trip to New York last Christmas. Her organization skills are beyond what words can describe and how normal beings can comprehend. Her last sms to me was this:

“reserve ticket. date, London-Hongkong, date, Hongkong-ALS, date, Penang – Hongkong – London. U better book ticket quick. HongKong to Penang direct already full frm date to date. Only available Hongkong-KL-Penang”

This is her! :) Only this time our year end trip was suppose to meet in Shanghai why ended up Hongkong? Wei 'we gotto talk'! hahaha!

And her fashion sense and meticulous personality puts my outlook into tip top condition. While all I can say is that – can’t go out with messy hair, with no make up, with no matching dress, shoes and bags – wear a belt or a scarf if necessary and never go out without accessories. I wonder how we ever clicked. Or was it opposite attracts? Haha! Well dearest you know what – I’ll never survive to be so meticulous about my look if is not because of you. Won’t know how to appreciate the fashion sense if is not because of you. And won’t be shopping trained not because of you…. Hahaha… just kidding. (Note: I have yet to find someone with better shopping stamina then Wei *wink*) All joke aside though, she is truly an angel for she is the one that woke me up from my depression last year – the one who makes me realize how much I have in my life – and for that I will be forever thankful.

Writing about these 3 girls already gave me a sense of life satisfaction. Is almost morning now and I am really a little tired. I’ll continue about the other three later but before I go to sleep I have this image in my mind….

In 10-20-30 years to come will I be able to do what mom and Aunty GL does - lying on the sofa together watching TV with you girls. Will we be still holding hands together while we go shopping or still pick up the phone across the globe from each other and chat till wee hours in the morning like lovers? Will we be there in each other’s wedding – just like we are now in each other’s every relationship, every break up and every falling in love, looking at our children growing up and getting married themselves later, or being there for each other on challenging time such as an operation or sickness. Life is so unpredictable these days yet is my wish to God tonight that I’ll get to keep these best friends at every single stage of my life for you girls alraedy are.

I’ll leave my writing tonight with this profound thought that a very good friend shared with me few nights ago – I hope he doesn’t mind me sharing this –

We treasure not the things that is forever, that is everlasting, for this is our nature.
At times, when the good Lord takes away someone close to us, it makes us realize how fragile life really is.
That we are living on borrowed time.
Time that has little meaning to those blinded in this world of chaos.
Once in a while, when we do peer past the mist that envelopes us, we start to treasure that is all around us.
For life is too short, too fragile and too unpredictable for us to brood on negative thoughts.
Let us focus on what is at hand, the people that are around here.
For the sands of time is constantly flowing, all that’s around us shall become memories.
A ghost of the past and a part of history.
Take not for granted the very seconds that slips by us, and let not anger, hatred, deceit, jealousy prevent us from living our life.
Death to many is a thing to be feared, to me, death increase the value of all that is around us.
Loose not another minute broiling over past insults, forgive and love all that’s around us.
For one day too, we too shall be nought but a memory…


*to be continued

True Love

True Love by Wislawa Szymborska

True love. Is it normal is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions but convinced
it had to happen this way - in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice? Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected principles,
and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?
Listen to them laughing - its an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!

It's hard even to guess how far things might go
if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered? What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?

True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.

Let the people who never find true love
keep saying that there's no such thing.

Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.


Moi's View:

Szymborska, Polish Nobel Prize Winner – 2003 my encounter with her is somewhat ‘coincidental’ so much as that I don’t believe in coincident. :) It was the movie Left Turn, Right Turn that leads me to Szymborska work – the Cantonese romance film, stars Takeshi Kaneshiro (Vae’s Bf – LOL!) and Gigi Leung depicts how fate intertwine with our lives and play a large role in it even if we like it or not. The movie was based upon Szymborska ‘Love at First Sight’ something I held close to heart because of the circumstances of life I was in and dealing with then.

As much as fate always plays, we had another encounter thru her work ‘True Love’ early this year – this poem is provoking in every way and notice what you notice from the work – it is truly unique. True love – is it really necessary? How many souls broken by it? How many of us given up hope on it? How many of us turn a cynic by true love? Yet time and time again - I still believe in it. Does it exist – for me – yes it does (ya me the hopeless romantic). Why? Because I believe – “What God put together, no man can divide”.

Jalal ad-Din Rumi wrote this and I find it very beautiful -
“The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere; they are in each other all along”

May all of you find your true love along your journey in life because nothing is ever too late when you encounter true love. :)


p/s: Her work 'The Three Oddest Word', one of her nobel prize winning selection - is profound for contemplation should any of you love poetry that way.

Angel Teardrops

I can't comprehend my own feelings at the moment -

Angel Teardrops
by Kathleen Sheppard

My guardian angel, once careless and free,

flew into the clouds and lost touch with me.

Her tears were cold and wet, falling on my face.

Her smile had left us without a trace.

Her angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared,

I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare.

I knew that angels, often content,

were very special presents that God had sent.

To see one so sad,

so afraid,

so alone,

had made me weep while the cold winds had blown.

Her wings lost feathers,

comforting and soft,

falling from the stars,

floating aloft.

Her pain was felt throughout the land,

to feel true misery is impossible to stand.

I prayed so that when her hurting stops,

I'll be able to taste the angel's teardrops.

Full Plate

Moi and the Famous Chef!

Frenzs!

Moi and Tj Leo President Cheng Inn

TJ Leos - ya we were drinking thanks to PP Raymond! ;) hahaha!

Union Leos - 16 - they make me feel 16! *wink*

Just finished reading: Harry Potter – Deathly Hallows, Julia Quinn

Currently Reading:(1) Kybalion(2) Entering the Castle, Caroline Myss (3) The One – Kathy Freston

Just watched:

RUSH HOUR 3 – this is pure laughters, like just so good I laugh non stop. Well to me I think there really isn’t much depth in this movie. The line’s pretty predictable and the villain easily identify from the start. Yet is a good movie for rest and relax after a long day’s work. I think this is also one of the movie that successfully insulted every nation, countries and culture they can relate to. Those jokes are funny to max that we are still laughing during supper and when we meet up again in the weekends! *cheeky smile* Fun seeing JoJo and Grace dancing after the movie – they were like so high – Jo especially – been a long time since I seen such joy in my sister!*wink**wink*

RATATOUILLE – lol.. ya I know I am so lucky to be invited to attend the movie premier in KL last week – so I am not going to spoil it by blogging about the movie. Thot I have to say is a profound and powerful ‘little’ cartoon. I can just resonate so much with this cartoon. I always find cartoon with lots of life hidden meaning to it and the last cartoon I can ‘feel’ and relate so much on a mental and emotional level was the Brother Bear years ago. However for me this one is just so profound, every word heartfelt and penetrating.

Want to watch: BABEL

Just listened: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible

Now listening: Andre Bocelli – Amore

This week has not been easy. No where being the usual luxury of being Jennifer Lim. *wink*wink* Been pack up with lots of work, working till late on some projects. Two companies under my direct management are moving at once securing 3 projects in a week amounting to million dollars – I am so happy and proud. As much as I am very very excited about the whole thing is somehow wearing me out a little mentally. Hehe. To top there so many new business opportunities and ideas that came along the way – faster than I can study and research upon them. ;) However it reinforces my trust on the opportunities the market has got to offer and we just need to have the open mind to explore and accept it. I wish somehow I got the resources (time, people and money) to create all these ideas to reality. It is also very inspiring to know what people are doing out there.

I am pretty impress during a family meeting recently that my dad actually said this to me and JoJo – “just do it ler we going to sell about concept only anyway” – wow my father understands about ‘concepts’ and branding – I am speechless. He does not complain about the $$$$$ we all budgeted into promotions anymore and been pretty encouraging with ‘proper branding and marketing strategy’. Even Terence was laughing in amazement when dad tries to talk about branding with him and JoJo during their usual ‘Saturday breakfast’. So anyone out there praying your parents would change – they probably will you know! Hahaha! Mine just did! *wink*

This week’s highlight of course is none other than my membership interview with PSC. However, is such a highlight that Guan Aik and I are going to just laugh ourselves out with whatever happened during that night. *wink**wink* Sorry some things are really not for public reading. Still I wanna thanks Guan Aik for being such wonderful company that night.

It was also fun attending Tanjung’s Anniversary again – think the last time I attended one was years ago before I left for Australia. Good to see some old faces and new ones as well. I somehow manage to surprise most of the uncles and aunties. The Leos were so hyper these days it is so good to be in their company again. LOL I use to think we are hyper – gosh you guys should see them. Hehe. Is nostalgic though for me to look at them. *wink**wink* You guys really rock!

Was off in KL during the weekend - it just worn me out - mentally, physically and emotionally. Yet I say is all worth it - most of all for the awareness and awakening or probably something in its surface as material as the Louis Vuitton buying experience but in it all contains much more than that - what I wanted to say - mhm - is that - that my darling my love - you are worth it - more than that LV !! *wink**wink*

The romantic me

Inside Of Me by Jay Scott

If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart

If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me

In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much

Knowing I can talk to you
about any and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring

I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you

Though with each new day,each sunrise
we can't know what's in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more

So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how blessed I feel
to have you here with me.


Your eyes, your smile. Your touch, your kiss.
Your promise, your words. Our everlasting bliss.
- Penelope Bell -

Smell of Roses

Was in KL again for the weekend. Mhm.. and was staying in friend’s house. When I got into the house there were two large bouquets of roses in the house – one dark red bouquet in the living room and one pure white bouquet in the dining hall. So so beautiful. I took a little while to just be silent to appreciate the roses and I realize with such a busy schedule is a luxury to be away in somewhere that I can just slow down and smell the roses. Do you all know that the red rose’s scent is very much different from white rose?

Roses brought me back to memories of school days – Martin taught me how much life can be learned from the rose itself. To me The Lily is the symbol of elegance; purity and perfection ‘a destination’ while The Rose symbolizes courage, strength, boldness, endurance and perseverance ‘a journey’. While a Lily makes dreams a Rose make it human.

Some roses Quotation/Lesson that I learnt and always love:

'Beauty without virtue is like a rose without scent'

'The fragrance always remains in the hand that gives the rose. Be a rose which gives frangrance even to those who crushes it'

‘Do not watch the petals fall from the rose with sadness, know that, like life, things sometimes must fade, before they can bloom again’

'Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense. So he that dares not grasp the thorn shoould never crave the rose'

'The rose speaks of love silently, in a language known only to the heart.'

‘The red rose whispers of passion, And the white rose breathes of love;O, the red rose is a falcon,And the white rose is a dove.’John Boyle O’Reilly

For me, I am glad that day I “Take time to smell the roses” but even after all this “A Rose is a rose is a rose”. Thank you for the roses.

Am going to get some pure white roses for my room this week, it will be a sweet reminder of the smell of roses.

L'AMOUR VOUS MÈNERA EN ARRIÈRE

L'AMOUR VOUS MÈNERA EN ARRIÈRE

Saying goodbye is never an easy thing
But you never said you'd stay forever
So if you must go,
Oh, Darling I'll set you free
But I know in time
We'll be together
I won't try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in My Heart I know
Love will lead you back
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days our love
Will lead you back
One of these nights
Oh I'll hear your voice again
You're gonna say
How much you miss me
You'll walk out this door, but
Some day you'll walk back in
Darling I know, I know this will be
Sometimes it takes some time out on your own
To find your way back home
Love will lead you back
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days our
Love will lead you back
Cause I will try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in My Heart I know
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong.
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back
Love will lead you back
Some day, I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
It won't be long
One of these days our
Love will lead you back


I heard this song played and the words move me. The universe never stops to amaze me. How much we are all inter-connected to one another. The song describes some things that I am going thru now and how a soul I met allows the space for me to walk thru it. At the same time the universe is asking me to allow someone I love dearly to do the same. Is a kind of liberation to be able to do that – to truly experience what unconditional love is and what often only with words we say ‘If you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was’.

LOL. It is not triangle love I am talking of here – it is nothing romantic or actually everything romantic - *wink**wink* I just wanted my sister to know I love her and am prepare to treat her like an adult – setting her free to do what she wants to do – trusting her in her decisions in life and business - thot sometimes habits die hard that we love controlling each other so much. I am sorry. Maybe I am trying too hard again to make the relationship between us work – I am a little frustrated with myself – wish I am better in expressing when it comes to her. I love you Jo.

It reminds me what Hesse, a German-Swiss poet and Nobel Prize winner says ‘Some of us think holding on makes us stong; but sometimes it is letting go’ and yes this is the time. And for someone who takes 15 mins to show me that, the 15 mins that meant so much – because ‘action does speak louder than words’ – Thank You, I want you to know how much that 15 mins meant to me and showing me what it is like to truly set someone free. *smile*

Little updates & some Q&A

Little updates & some Q&A –

Sunshine – We last talk when I was in Perlis, hey your dad was not there ler so don’t get to tease him about missing you. And you my dear - Cloudy weather huh? ;) Sick – poor thingy! Of course the good news you are getting to go to Queensland soon – so lucky! Better get well soon and like I say - if you need someone to take care of you - please come home - cos your mom is around! HAHAHA! Just kidding! love your site – lots of picture and stories about your new life (actually some part old – craving for Japanese or good food, CARs CARs and CARs *wink**wink*). Of course we should write on bubble milk tea vs TPTL!

MeiMei CheChe – hottest girl in SF! Blog is up – http://ameizingcupcakes.blogspot.com/ - sorry I was a little outdated – I could not access your blog earlier so I continue to leave comment msges on my own blog! Happy Belated Birthday anyway – wishing you ever lasting love, beauty and sexiness just the way you always are! ;) Iphone - so nice – I want a MAC PRO – then an Iphone to match would be just great. Hehehe.. greedy!

Milly – Oktoberfest *blink**blink* - we must do that – and it is always you and your ‘Germanese’. Ardo taking me dancing? LOL - I am stopping over Macau too. I’ll definitely have lunch with someone else, the last time I make lunch appointment with you I ended up roaming around Chung Wan alone. Oh how’s Jeremy – still in Sydney? I was browsing and I saw those pictures we took in HK last year – good memories! How’s Elsa and Paul and the dog – hehehe – tell them I miss their cooking and the turkey – LOL okie okie – I am looking/begging for an invitation to go back and celebrate Xmas in HK this year with you guys… pretty please? *wink**wink* Since Vae got a new place – I heard people’s house - resort type like – exact description of the owner herself “great view facing the mountain as if in Switzerland when the clouds cover the peak – is like living a holiday/dream home” – wahlau eh I also want to stay – I can take care of the orchids. *hint*

Another good news – someone is relocated to Shanghai and relo package include a house and chauffeur – so the fact now I got an additional home to go too with a chauffeur to drive me around – hehehe - *devious mind working* I’ll very likely fly from HongKong to Shanghai – and someone is working very hard to rearrange schedule to be in Hongkong with me! So lets party!!

JA – got your msg late last night but I was in a meeting - sowee. Been few weeks since we last talk – the last month we manage that few emails - hopefully get to talk to you soon. Update update – need to ask you a few things too… and yes I suppose I am seeing you very very very very soon!! Can’t wait so happy!

Bliss

Just finished reading: Harry Potter – Deathly Hallows (love it – only part I don’t like it that too many characters were killed – realistic but for a children book? Nah! Nikko so want to kill me when I was discussing with Wilfred about the book the other day. Hahaha!).

This week’s novels week– spending time reading Julia Quinn and I gotto say ‘Yes Girls the books’ great!’. We will have so much fun talking and laughing about it. Almost close to my favorite romance author of all time – Dame Barbara Cartland. Of course, this is a modern type of romantic novels set in those olden times but you girls have to read Barbara Cartland because nothing comes close to romances like that! *wink*wink* Guess there is where my ‘hopeless romantic-ness’ build upon.
Currently Reading:
(1) Kybalion
(2) Entering the Castle, Caroline Myss – On the 1st Mansion now – talks about the conflict between the outer and inner self. Beautifully written and explain – mom and I shared so much laughter upon it. Also talks about spirituality versus Mysticism – the journey into the soul.
(3) The One – Kathy Freston (when you have someone to share the thots on – priceless)

Just watched: Transformer (okie okie… YOU WIN! Happy? It is truly a good movie – build up was good, graphic was impressive, storyline was beautiful, expression and spacing of the emotions was terrific and I simply just love the way they deploy the jets) Well is Michael Bay so I should not be surprise right and this time he did not over do the scenes. Lol! Well okie – someone is so enjoying this – thanks for literally buying the tickets and forcing me to watch? Okie okie.. I walk in voluntarily and can’t stand that smirk on your face next to me the whole night – still thank you my dear – is a terrific movie and glad I don’t have to missed it.)

Teaching of Abraham by Esther and Jerry Hicks – Law of Attraction. I just have to say this is one good documentary/movie that you all MUST watch. I won’t spoil the thing By writing more – because something in the world must be felt and experience with the heart. *wink*
Want to watch: RUSH HOUR 3 and BABEL

Just listened: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible
Now listening: Andre Bocelli – Amore


Is a rather speechless week – time just passed, lots of things happen yet everything is falling into places, clearer and clearer. Is a very very blissful kind of feeling. “Blissful” mhm - ‘When you follow your bliss… door will open where you would not have thought there would be doors, and where wouldn’t be a door for anyone else’- Joseph Campbell. That is this week’s flow. Is nice when I make a commitment just a week ago to have a more solid ground, lots of time spend on my own reflecting, contemplating and writing.

Ya I know, I know I say to a lot of you lunches, dinners, teas, meeting up and dates is crazy how my schedule is going at the rate of two week ahead of me – and now having to take time of for myself too – just want you all to know that I am very grateful for the patience and understanding. Please be assure that I did not disappear or ignore or forget anyone – is just that I needed this time to ground my vision and direction. I am just so glad to say I am seeing it – so much clearer than before and the experience of it is ‘BLISS’.

Spend one weekend in Hatjai and Perlis – was a wonderful trip. Lots of food, shopping and fun! The Regent of Perlis was there with His consort at the dinner on Sunday – I have to say I am impressed. Living in Penang I am so not use to the idea of a royal family and its protocol. However, after this experience I am to say I am impress with the Royal family of Perlis – for the down to earth being with their people kind of character, the loyalty shown by their entourage and the joy and sincere presence they extended that night – dancing and laughing with us. It’s truly a wonderful night. The princess is so beautiful and elegant. Is like a fairytale. Nice!

The week went by just a nice mixture of work, social and solitude. Was fun lunching with the Master Chef himself in Soy @ G-Hotel – a joy of knowing what’s real good food – *wink*. Thought we came to conclusion is hard to be low profile in Penang – so – good luck trying! Hahaha!

Ajisan Ramen is open!!! Lol.. yes yes yes!! Pork Pork Pork!!! *wink* JoWei, ST and Nikko had so much fun on my ‘porkiness’ and it just end nicely with that large glass of A&W rootbeer. Hahaha!

Had dinner and jazz at Audee’s on Friday – oh I got news I got news – Paku is playing on Friday night – they are very good and guess what Audee had the recipe for Mudpie!! Terence is just going to laugh at me and with the look at my face when Audee announce it! Lol… is the signature Singapore mudpie that I love so much – sigh writing of it makes me feel like eating one now! Hehehe! Mudpie..mudpei…mudpie…. *laughs* I still remember Michael promise to cook me this mudpie in Melbourne - hey where's my mudpie? hehehe!

Also had lunch at Spice Garden Rasa Sayang – food is good and I love the ambience. Is a long time since I spend a lazy afternoon on Saturday up there like that. Very nice peaceful feeling. Hehehe! Reminds me Eugene Bro used to take us 3 monsters up there for c-o-c-o-n-u-t on Sundays and watching sunset. Nice!

The rest is all my time and work. Work progressing so well – I am amaze with the opportunities the market is preparing itself for. I am constantly impressed with the new ideas, concepts and inspiration that are creating in this world. I am so intrigue by it. Proud to be or rather have my part to play in it. My boss been driving me to think into a deeper level and I am slowly grasping more concepts and ideas. Ironically my work is highly P&C, as much as I wish I can share it with more people. Well well – cest la vie!

Moi? – La Vie Cest Belle!

Khor Kheng Lee

His MMS this year

Well well, I used to think - to know how many true friends we have is to calculate how many friends I can call at 3am in the morning if I needed to make that call. However, in today’s 24/7 global communication world and all those ‘night owls’ being awake late at night somehow my perspective towards this statement change. Although that, it is still consider rude in any of our culture to call a non close friend too late in the hours at night – therefore, those who are given the privilege has certainly secured their position as being important friends.

LOL – so why the long story? Because not many people in Jennifer Lim’s life can call her at 1am in the morning and say this “hey I have been reading your blog and waiting to be mention – how come never write about me one?” haha! And mom being there her ‘quota’ session in my room the conversation goes like this:

Mom : So late d who’s that?
Me: KK Lee
Mom : Wah Ah Lee long time never see you d ah, when you taking aunty to clubbing?
Me : Wei my mother ask you when you taking her clubbing?
KK Lee: Aunty noler very long time never go d, now only stay at home (however, each time I went to the clubs, and that is RARE I still see Ah Lee there) *wink**wink*
Mom : Then why so long never come see me?
Me: Wei my mom ask why so long never come see her?
KK Lee : Becos aunty both your daughter also don’t want me d…
Mom : Like that ah… so when you gonna…
Me: My mom ask….

Bla bla bla… LOL –end-

So even mom can find it amusing when he call at 1am – KK Lee – you gotto be something man!

So here I am writing about the man who wants to be written about – Mr Khor Kheng Lee. How feels happy d or not? *wink**wink*

Mhm.. Kheng Lee – is in every word of what is describe as a ‘true friend’– loyal, reliable, responsible, caring, thoughtful and someone who is always there 24/7. Our friendship takes us back exactly 10 years now – wow – now I realize is 10 years, we were oriented and inducted the same year into the same Leo Club – and after that the world is ours! Till today we are the in same Lions Club, cracking the same joke over and over again yet never bored about it. What makes KK Lee so special to me is that for the last 10 years he has never forgotten my birthday – even I was in Aussieland or North Pole – somehow or other the birthday message is faithfully delivered on that very date. This year the message came in MMS format in the morning and about 11pm he calls again and says “Happy Birthday dear”. I said, “Thanks, I got your mms this morning” and Kheng Lee says, ‘ya but better make sure, don’t want to break record and then later if forget your birthday sure ‘kena’ lifetime nagging’. Lol !! It is the ‘fear’ motivation now I know. *wink**wink*

So now, since you ‘force’ me to write *mhm I hope I remember what you ask me to write. Hahaha. Just kidding! Just kidding!* these are the reasons that makes KKLee such a special person to me, my family and all the friends we shared –

1) A fiercely loyal friend

2) Available at 24 hours – driver, dinner, accidents, “lost keys” *wink**wink*, listening to my grumbling, sad, depress, happy, celebration, drunk, hungry, bored, heart break, festival, clubbing etc etc etc

3) The only guy who took me shopping so that I can buy for him his first prom date’s dress, hand bags and shoe – and I pick her flowers too. Yalor never send me flowers also!!

4) Take my parents to clubbing – see how many people can do that. Haha!

5) Take me clubbing and be my ‘bodyguard’. Hahaha! Trust me – Kheng Lee is one of the most influential figure around the clubs in Penang and don’t under estimate the word ‘influential’ is goes beyond free, need not queue to get in and reserving the best seats in the club. *wink**wink*

6) Being super protective

7) My 3am mamak mate!

8) Cook ‘cola’ chicken for my mother and buy roti for her!

9) CNN network news. Including where my ‘father’, ‘sister’ whereabouts. Hahaha!! I enjoy this one most I guess!

10) Being there for me at my lowest points of life – although I’ll get scolding for crying in public area – emotional me – ya he is never the ‘I manja you’ type! Sigh!

11) Taking his Gf(s) and potential Gf(s) to my house so my mom can see! *wink*

12) Entertaining me with his sparing partner – Milo Tan who is now in the UK probably went into his PhD d cos no sound no shadow since January this year. Mhm I kinda miss those jokes of hokkien mee, nasi lemak and milo. -sigh-

13) Disappearing a few months off my life and somehow reappear again. Yalor now I realize you n Milo Tan like to play ‘chip more – now you see now you don’t. So the very answer why you weren’t written about in this blog is because you disappear the last few months I started the blog! Lol!!

14) One of those rare person who would do crazy stuff like drive to Genting after clubbing at 3am n then take a spin and come back!! That was so so so cool!!


15) Was there at every dinners and projects I organized – finishing all the food! Okie and doing all the work too!

16) Was there at every of my birthday parties to blow balloons and pick rubbish after that!

17) Was there so that we can all throw him into the pool after those parties clean up!

18) Was there to book my every trip to Pulau Paya!!

19) Was there to send me off when I leave for the country to Aussie – those ungodly hours in the morning – well he is indeed there 24/7.

20) Just by being you and being there!!!!!

K ler… long enough d lor hor? Hehehehe… thank you dear… for all these 10 years of sincere and honest friendship. These 10 years of genuine concern and care. Thank you!!

p/s: I am going to foresee that after this, my left hand, right hand, sai lohs, sai muis, left leg and right leg is going to msg and call me and say – Tai Ka Che only Kheng Lee important ler.. What about us? Lol…. I surrender – you girls and guys are all great souls and it never make me more proud than to have served together with all of you. :)

Dinner at QEII :)

VIP Dining with a View

Classic Lightings

Lobster ! Yum Yum!

Cough Mixture! ;)

Grass! Grassy Grass! hoho!

QEII, Penang - truly an extra ordinary place to be. The deco is tastefully done and the environment blends very well with each other. Got to thank Aunty A for letting us view the ‘private collections’ and touring us around the outlet. Lol – I am pretty impress with the toilet door – apparently Channel, Japan inspiration! :)

Food is fantastic – lol – Uncle TC is probably right – we had the best of everything because we went Chinese style dining on western cuisine. Dessert was happy endings – when Isabel says “we’ll have everything on the menu”! Hahaha! My recommendation? E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!

However, true discovery for the night - don’t know if you guys did but I heard this many times - ‘if you mix the type of alcohol you drink you will get drunk’. Uncle TC just proven the theory wrong – lol! Started with beer then to wine and finish with whiskey – and I am saying like not just a glass of each – he is still going back to office to work after dinner. This is so cool!! Hahaha!

Thanks to Dato’ Uncle (haha! Love getting on his nerve - I am so enjoying this) for the invitation! We 3 sisters truly get to be ‘kampungan’ all over again!! Baby G – I am so not to drink that grass drink and cough mixture the next round! Lol!! Where are we dining next?

Morning Meditation

I revive my morning meditation practice this week – lol – ya was being a little lazy and busy the last few months. :)

And one of the answers was discovered to my writing on ‘LOST’ the day before. For me is like, WOW, when we write down and communicate to the universe the universe does feedback! :) The answer just came. I was like amazed! LOL!

I know one person will be truly curious to know my breakthrough because we were having this 5 hours conversation on Tuesday night and he kept pestering me on what open up for me from the sharing that night. *wink* Sorry dearest I wasn’t exactly evading your question on purpose, I was just afraid to face it. Well gotto thank you for being so understanding and letting me off the hook at night. It is true that there is no way when two people share and nothing opens up. Will share with you when we see each other next.

However, I love today’s contemplation for me – ‘Going to the Post Office’

Thoreau -

“You may depend on it, that poor fellow who walks away with the greatest number of letters, proud of his extensive correspondence, has not heard from himself this long while”

Do we listen to ourselves? What does our heart, our mind and our soul says? Do we hear the voices of passion and love, voices of virtue and wisdom? What do I hear in my voice? What do you hear in yours?

I am putting a more solid ground to my life starting 2 nights ago – a promise of more time for quiet contemplation, more time for writing and developing ideas/vision/dreams.

Love this quote I came across last night,

Ralph Waldo Emerson:
What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what your duty is better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great person is one who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.

If any of you out there have something to share, do post it! :) Would love to hear your view.

Dinner Experience at Feringghi Grill

The VIP dining room

The Chandelier

Dessert - Yummy!
More Dessert - Yummy Yummy!

Elmo decided to join us for dinner. :)

I have been dreaming to dine here ever since God knows when but never seems to find someone who is either interested, free or in the same state (right Mr R.Ong?) to dine.

Yet as usual, God's plan is always the most beautiful - my first time at Feringghi Grill will be another lifetime experience of fine dining!

The dinner certain draw a lot of W-O-W factors - VIP room dining, beautifully decorate long table, meticulous layout of cutlery – is just amazing! Yet we are all so casual, totally laid back and relax – the waiters just laugh so much with us or maybe even at us! :)

The food – PASTA by the King of Pasta – Vincenzo Spinosi currently the visiting Chef at Rasa Sayang so we gotto try his entire signature dish menu. I love the selection we we order because we ordered E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G on the menu, including desserts. Hahaha… and even the desserts are made of pastas! It is a truly unique menu. Raspberry pasta mix dessert! Crazy fun!

Lucky I SOS phone on the right day. I enjoyed myself so much last night – laughing and laughing! Thanks Aaron for the invitation and thanks ‘Tai Loh’ Nikko for dinner! You both are AWESOME!

My New Toy!

My new toy :)

Nokia 6300 - Voted Stuff Reader's Choice 2007 - Best Mobile Phone! Truly thin, classy and in every way sophisticated

However not only the phone is cool, but I find the process of buying the phone truly inconceivable. I was having lunch with ‘The Lunch Gang’ – Aaron, Wilfred etc on Thursday at Gurney Plaza. As gadget kings (ya fully updated walking gadget dictionary) they swap out their new, latest, very sophisticated phone, communicator etc – wow – truly charming! [For the record they all carry at least 2 mobiles each]. So I shared that I am looking to change my mobile and probing to find out which phone is better. Without hesitation Wilfred just said, let’s go mobile shopping after lunch. So off we go after lunch, to this shop in Gurney – Wilfred shows me the Nokia 6300 and there was an offer on the phone. What’s cool is Kok Hing upon hearing I want to buy the phone call his friend and strike a very good deal there and then on the phone. He collected the phone for me the very night and Voila I got my phone when we had lunch at Sky the next day! Hahaha! Talking about service, efficiency and network marketing! I got all that experience in buying a mobile phone – a truly undefined Penang Cultural Experience! :)

Of course that is not the end of the story, hahaha, me being me is just ‘dumb’ when it comes to electronics. I had problem transferring data from my old phone to the new. So I went for S-O-S service – hahaha - thanks to Aaron, Nikko and Kok Hing – they have to – er all I know is ‘bluetooh’, ‘PC Suite’, ‘search’, ‘press ok button’ and again VOILA is all done!!

Hey guys – really thank you. Is a wonderful mobile buying experience – maybe you all want to diverse your business? *wink**wink* I better remember to pay for my phone! hahaha!

World Music Festival - Penang

Ashwin - The Man! :)

Nikko - our "Tai Loh" - 2nd day

Us on the 1st day!

Me and Jojo! We actually wearing the same blue. Day 1!

Note *mhm - a little drawback of the rain thot I find - we did not take much pictures even so many of us are there. Daniel finally got his Nikon SLR but gotto hide it in the bag. I did not get the picture with the rest too. lol. Poor Terence take pictures for us but dun get to take for himself. Next year, Dan - we going to ask Ash for this special XSC space where we can drink and dance all night! Brother you heard [READ] us okie!! Where was the free flow of beer? *wink**wink*

It such a fantastic event and I am so proud of you Ashwin - the Project Manager! Brother you make us all proud - for having this great idea to bring it to Penang, for all the hard work put into organizing this event - gosh - it is truly the talk of the town. Everyone I meet during the week was like - hey you going to the world music fest this week? where is taman kuari?. You are a true born marketer my dear!

I know there is the rain – but you know what – you are so right – is MUSIC – people who is passionate about music don’t mind the rain! They will be there anyway and judging from the crowd that night – we love the music in the rain! Hahaha!

Got to say Saturday finale was the best – my favorite. They are truly A-W-E-S-O-M-E. I found myself drawn to the guitar and flute sound this time around. Don’t know why, not exactly before but this time these two musical instruments draw me to them. Mhm I am curious too! Can’t wait to get the video clips from Nikko!

Look forward to your Jazz Fest next Ash, and I truly love the ‘See you in 2008’ banner joke! :)
p/s: Jay just send me the song we heard that night from that last group on Sat - wow is so good. Well he is not telling me how he got it thot - magic he says - lol. Anyway thanks!! Its really good!

Lost

After so many months I realize that there is a part of my emotion emerges - I am still denying it, not feeling it, just afraid. I guess I can’t put it into words – for if I can it will already be clear for me. Anyway this morning this song strikes me – don’t know why but I don’t need an answer for everything right - but it is definately for a reason. Of course we "don’t have to rationalize and analyze every single thing in our life" – *hint**hint* - *wink**wink*

MICHAEL BUBLE

"Lost"

I can't believe it's over

I watched the whole thing fall

And I never saw the writing that was on the wall

If I'd only knew

The days were slipping past

That the good things never last

That you were crying

Summer turned to winter

And the snow it turned to rain

And the rain turned into tears upon your face

I hardly recognized the girl you are today

And god I hope it's not too late

It's not too late'

Cause you are not alone

I'm always there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through'

Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When your worlds crashing down

And you can't bear the thought

I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy

It can tear your soul apart

It can make you feel like you've gone crazy

But you're not

Things have seem to changed

There's one thing that's still the same

In my heart you have remained

And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone

And I am there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through'

Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When the worlds crashing down

And you can not bear to crawl

I said, baby, you're not lost

Memories of Melbourne

Had some time after class last night, totally exhausted from work, studying, partying and everything - then some nostalgic moment and creativity transpire… my reminiscing is always of Melbourne. Maybe I was once really really happy there…

Max Brenner, Koko Black, Opera n Plays,
They sound like so far away,

Trampoline ice cream - is all in my dream,
Cold Rock with Kit Kat, there is more that I can get,
They both lies in that Glenferrie stretch,

Pancakes at Stoker, by the fire
Brings back memory I so desire,

Il Dolce Freddo for durian ice cream with dinner at Lygon, such a bygone,
Fish n Chips @ Williamstown, can even remember the Kilpatrick Oysters now,

Ruan Thai, where laughters made us high,
Miss Marple's scone and tea, can just make me heart go 'weeeeee',

Bridge Road to Bourke Street, even I found those seductive,
Chadstone and Chapel Street, no way I could resist,

Mt Dandenong, the memory in my mind still so strong,
there was a space I felt totally belong,

There was Fitzroy Garden, where I will visit so often,
it was the answer to all those questions,

Strolling along Yarra alone is something I would always do,
It helps me remember those precious times with you,

All memories lead me back to Melbourne, four years ago;
did I fell in love with the place or did I with you?

Cravings

:P just finish a 3 hours meeting – straight – mind blowing. The only news is that I slept at 5am last night finishing some work. I am so t-i-r-e-d mentally. Craving for some time and space – my brain… got another meeting in ½ hour time and a business meeting tonight - wonder how I can sustain it.

Really craving for some quiet time, ‘too many minds’ [Last Samurai] and too many things in my mind – maybe I’ll do my beach walk tomorrow – been a while since I did that. Mhm… sand.. sand.. ;)