Facets of Moi- My Mind, My Heart, My Soul

THE NEW CHAPTER

2009-03-10T01:07:00.003-07:00

As my life facets continue to change, I'll now start to blog on a new path. If you are still interested on journeying together with me you can reach me at:

http://www.lightpathfinders.blogspot.com/

THANK YOU

A Perfect Day in Bangkok – Truly the Land of Smiles

2008-05-01T11:24:00.002-07:00

Woke up about 10am this morning after arriving last night. Was a great sunny day and after a nice warm bath I had ‘daddy’s home cook breakfast’ – the joy of traveling with a father who is an excellent cook! ;-)

After breakfast we got ready and hit downtown to Yaowarat – Bangkok’s Chinatown and where I will go in my every trip to Bangkok without fail. So you might wonder what attracts me back to Chinatown every time? My answer is simple : LOVE!

For in Chinatown Bangkok lives this wonderful man that I love very very much. LOL! My Thai Goddad! He lives or rather has a shop in chinatown for the last umpteen years. My dad and my goddad had been childhood friends and he has me as his goddaughter since I was 2 years old. My Goddad is by far the best father in the world of course beside my daddy darling! I have introduced numerous friends to him and all of them love him in the very first instance – without failed. Some call him the Maitere Buddha look alike, some says he is such a grandfatherly figure – for whatever names he get – he is like one of the most generous man I ever known and he loves me a lot.

For instance one week prior my visit to Bangkok the last trip he had somebody to send some sweeten nuts from Hadtyai, mangoes from Supanburi and he brought a lot of stuff I love to eat. This time three days before my arrival he got some mangoes and keeps them till is rightly ripe for my arrival! My Godmom says he talks about me coming to Bangkok to everyone who visits the office. Indeed I am a very lucky girl!

So as we arrive as usual – godmom ordered our favorite noodle soup ( Chels will go crazy over this one ). This time I had a lot of fishballs to eat it with! *wink* Just as we finish the noodles the maids brought down several plates of mango sticky rice ( no doubt my mom and also Nikko’s fav ). As we are done with mango sticky rice, the maid then brought down a large plate of freshly cut mangoes and it is served with Goddad’s favorite tea – 409 – the King of Teas. By now I really needed a rest for my stomach so I ventured out for some accessories shopping around that area. I return about half hour later to find another of my favorite delight – ‘roti canai’ milk mini size wrapped in tracing paper – they are hot and tasty right out from the pan. With that comes another serving of freshly cut mangoes and 4 huge mangoes to take home! My stomach is in heaven that afternoon!

Coming home we got ready for Sukanya’s farewell party @ The Oriental Bangkok. This is another dining experience that I’ll never forget. Conde Nast Traveler wrote “If only all hotels can be like this” and I support every word it says. I have dine in no small amount of 5 star hotel restaurants around the world – Mandarin Oriental & Ritz Carlton KL, Peninsula & Inter Continental HongKong, St Regis Shanghai, Wynn Macau, Ritz Cartlon Half Moon Bay near San Francisco, Sofitel & Crown – Melbourne, Raffles & Mandarin in Singapore however really I have not quite experience something like The Oriental Bangkok. It is not only the food and the selection that makes the hotel outstanding – it is the finest in details, the warmth and attentiveness of the hotel staffs and the grandeur and charm that the hotels held for so many years.

It all starts from the moment we arrive at the door, as the guard open the door we were approached by an attendant. What can I do for you madam he asked and Jojo replied we are having dinner tonight at the Riverside Terrace. Well this is the point where the difference begins – instead of telling us how to get there or pointing to us the direction – he merely says let me show you the way and he escorted us all the way to the restaurant. I would say I am impressed.

Of course when we arrived everyone’s already there and we all exchange hello’s’ n each of us found our seat. I was seated next to mom and Kun Kurt while Dad’s beside Kun Bella and Jojo. I noted that even we are just having buffet dinner by the riverside, and there are almost 20 of us in the long table they restaurant never fail to set up the dinner table in a perfect table setting – the whole range from bread knife to dessert utensils. Even the water goblet has a small cotton sewn placement mat at the base to prevent the condense water from dripping onto the table.

The next thing we move up to start our buffet dinner. I selected some bread, salad, sushi and sashimi to start with. As I walked of the selection table, a waiter come forward and offer to carry my plate, I hand it over as he escorted me back to my dining table, just as I was to approach my seat another waiter was there waiting to put my chair out for me to be seated. The best thing was that it does not only happen to me but to the rest as well. I thought it was supposed to be a buffet dinner but I am truly amazed with how much personalization the hotel can put in. As Kun Kurt decided on the choice of red wine we are having on that night - the ‘correct’ red wine glass was place in front of those who chooses to drink – LOL – *wink* not only that the but the glass was placed very carefully at the correct position on the table.

The food for that night was great – the variety in its selection – meat, sauce, style of cooking ranged from Japanese – Indian – Western – Thai etc etc etc. I was totally in another heaven. It was a jazz band playing that night – the selection of music is those I totally loved; the sound level was I would call it perfect – just loud enough for us to listen and enjoy as well as soft enough for our voices to talk to each other.

My final experience was of course asking for direction to the toilet. I first asked a lady waitress that show me and tells me how to get there, just as I walk a few steps over another man waiter seems to know where I am heading leads me to half way and another lady shows me the way from there. The toilet very much like all the colonial hotels – has it own charm and beauty especially in the powder room.

The dinner started and ended in perfection. The one word I’ll describe it as – IMPECCABLE. The company was great – the conversation and jokes exchanged better! It felt like being home with all the Signity staffs. I love their work culture. They even call my mother ‘mama’.

I got to say – I love my life. I felt so blessed with the variety and choices I am always with – the enjoyment of simple local delights ‘mango sticky rice’ and ‘noodle soup’ at the road side stalls to the classy dining at The Oriental Bangkok. The love of close family friends which is similar to the love of suppliers and work related friends.

Thank you Goddad and Godmom, Uncle Chai for all the goodies I enjoyed so much at your place as always. Thank you Kun Kurt for inviting us along to your company’s ‘family dinner’, Kun Bella for sending us home, Kun Sukanya for your support and friendship rendered and all the staff of Signity who makes us feel at home in Bangkok with you.
Thank you God and angels from making my life as always – in your divine perfection!

p/s: Miss you Hong Hong – somehow when I wrote this I knew you will certainly be one of those who will enjoy dining like this. In fact when I was dining last night they played Sway and another song (it’s in the Susan Wong’s album) I thought of you. ;-)

The Long Pause

2007-10-17T11:15:00.000-07:00

August 20 - last entry "True Love". Almost 2 months now - time really just fly - a good friend made a comment over lunch yesterday - "Mhm Jenn I notice your blog stopped at True Love - have you stop writing because you found your True Love?" *Laughs* This is the very question I am struck for weeks now that I have no answer to that question - probably like most people I am still learning to decipher myself. Life is becoming more and more interesting to me. I wrote a lot about 'love' - and somehow or other my love life became an interesting topic - or rather at my age it becomes everyone 'concern' topic for 'my best interest' *wink* Well so lets keep this part of my life mysterious for a little while more.

And the real reason for not writing for so long – really was merely the fact that I was not in the Country for the past few weeks. My traveling schedule for the last two months was like that

Singapore – Vietnam – KL – Melbourne – Brisbane – Gold Coast – Hong Kong – Macau – next Singapore

I’ll open a travel diary soon – soon enough when/if I settle down. Hahaha!

So if I don’t write about love, poetry, travels – what is there interesting enough to write?

Maybe I can start writing about food – was in Ferringhi Grill tonight – not the best time to be there – for my personal reason but still the Oyster Galore is now on- yummy – will want to do that – maybe next week. B-O-R-I-N-G

Maybe about work – mhm… nah… inspiration – here is something heartfelt for me for the past few nights -

Best Friends

Something caught my heart and soul these few days – something worthwhile to be pen down in words and recorded in my heart.

Godma is in the hospital – just finished with her by-pass surgery. She did very well and is recovering much better than expected. Is a blessing and for that I am very thankful. Yet was touching for me in a very special way that her best friend Aunty June was there sleeping in the hospital the night before the operation just being there for her. The gesture was very heart warming. They are 60ish and yet their friendship remains.

When I return home – I was stunt once again by this very moment – my mom and her best friend who is visiting from outstation sitting/laying so comfortable with one another in my living room watching movie. That instant itself – that very moment – at that perspective is a very joyful moment to savor. I stood that for a moment watching both of them – and a tear actually drop of my eyes for that moment is such a touching moment. When I return to my room for my aromatherapy – I spend the 2 luxurious hours reflecting of each of my best friend – and all my memories I gather, collected and shared with each of them.

‘Lucky’ – is what I have been my whole life. If people are thankful to be blessed by a good friend, a best friend I am very very super multiple extra lucky to be blessed with SIX best friends – each of them entering my life at a different stage and since then never left.

Of course Vae was the first to come in mind – the fact that we just spend some time together in HongKong last week. Our friendship started back in high school from a sleep over party at my house for New Year. Is like a romance itself that we stayed up all night talking till wee hours in the morning and ended up watching sunrise together on the 1st of January 1996. Vae is one of the strongest and toughest girl in the group. Is always to her I look for strength. She been there through the lowest point of my life – nurturing me to every bit I had left. Now that she has found happiness I am truly happy for her. Not only happy but very very very proud. Darling, this trip to HK you make me realize how much we both have grown – how much we both have been in each other’s life (btw I was there FIRST- *wink**wink*) - how much this friendship extend the love that is unconditional. However this trip is when I see how much you have grown wiser and for whatever choice you make –I’ll always be there.

Then of course comes Joanne – another high school best friend – our friendship happened in the weirdest way ever – becos we are actually classmates since primary school – however our friendship has always been a competitive one because we always one to out do each other in studies. However don’t get me wrong – being competitive does not make us enemy but best of friends. It does not stop us from doing what all students do – copy each other’s homework, exchange notes, studying together, doing projects together – however we still love to out do each other in studies. Hahaha! And Joanne is an exemplar of a role model for independence, leadership and beauty. She is the every guy dream girl. *wink* and if anyone thinks beauty without brains – I’ll advise you – don’t challenge this girl. Not ‘my Joanne’. Haha. So because she is always so smart, Joanne ends up my life counselor/consultant most of the time. Listening to me through and giving the most rational advice of all time.

The come my most organized, meticulous and fashionable Yen Wei. The only one who is earning British pound and could effort LV, Gucci, Bally present for her best friend here who is still earning Ringgit. Lol. Is my favorite joke with her. We met back in college day – first day of college – over a bowl of tomyam noddle at Penang Bowl. I’ll never forget that very day and very sure she will not as well. Being the most organized one I obviously traveled most with her including our trip to New York last Christmas. Her organization skills are beyond what words can describe and how normal beings can comprehend. Her last sms to me was this:

“reserve ticket. date, London-Hongkong, date, Hongkong-ALS, date, Penang – Hongkong – London. U better book ticket quick. HongKong to Penang direct already full frm date to date. Only available Hongkong-KL-Penang”

This is her! :) Only this time our year end trip was suppose to meet in Shanghai why ended up Hongkong? Wei 'we gotto talk'! hahaha!

And her fashion sense and meticulous personality puts my outlook into tip top condition. While all I can say is that – can’t go out with messy hair, with no make up, with no matching dress, shoes and bags – wear a belt or a scarf if necessary and never go out without accessories. I wonder how we ever clicked. Or was it opposite attracts? Haha! Well dearest you know what – I’ll never survive to be so meticulous about my look if is not because of you. Won’t know how to appreciate the fashion sense if is not because of you. And won’t be shopping trained not because of you…. Hahaha… just kidding. (Note: I have yet to find someone with better shopping stamina then Wei *wink*) All joke aside though, she is truly an angel for she is the one that woke me up from my depression last year – the one who makes me realize how much I have in my life – and for that I will be forever thankful.

Writing about these 3 girls already gave me a sense of life satisfaction. Is almost morning now and I am really a little tired. I’ll continue about the other three later but before I go to sleep I have this image in my mind….

In 10-20-30 years to come will I be able to do what mom and Aunty GL does - lying on the sofa together watching TV with you girls. Will we be still holding hands together while we go shopping or still pick up the phone across the globe from each other and chat till wee hours in the morning like lovers? Will we be there in each other’s wedding – just like we are now in each other’s every relationship, every break up and every falling in love, looking at our children growing up and getting married themselves later, or being there for each other on challenging time such as an operation or sickness. Life is so unpredictable these days yet is my wish to God tonight that I’ll get to keep these best friends at every single stage of my life for you girls alraedy are.

I’ll leave my writing tonight with this profound thought that a very good friend shared with me few nights ago – I hope he doesn’t mind me sharing this –

We treasure not the things that is forever, that is everlasting, for this is our nature.
At times, when the good Lord takes away someone close to us, it makes us realize how fragile life really is.
That we are living on borrowed time.
Time that has little meaning to those blinded in this world of chaos.
Once in a while, when we do peer past the mist that envelopes us, we start to treasure that is all around us.
For life is too short, too fragile and too unpredictable for us to brood on negative thoughts.
Let us focus on what is at hand, the people that are around here.
For the sands of time is constantly flowing, all that’s around us shall become memories.
A ghost of the past and a part of history.
Take not for granted the very seconds that slips by us, and let not anger, hatred, deceit, jealousy prevent us from living our life.
Death to many is a thing to be feared, to me, death increase the value of all that is around us.
Loose not another minute broiling over past insults, forgive and love all that’s around us.
For one day too, we too shall be nought but a memory…

*to be continued

True Love

2007-08-20T20:20:00.000-07:00

True Love by Wislawa Szymborska

True love. Is it normal is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions but convinced
it had to happen this way - in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice? Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected principles,
and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?
Listen to them laughing - its an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!

It's hard even to guess how far things might go
if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered? What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?

True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.

Let the people who never find true love
keep saying that there's no such thing.

Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.

Moi's View:

Szymborska, Polish Nobel Prize Winner – 2003 my encounter with her is somewhat ‘coincidental’ so much as that I don’t believe in coincident. :) It was the movie Left Turn, Right Turn that leads me to Szymborska work – the Cantonese romance film, stars Takeshi Kaneshiro (Vae’s Bf – LOL!) and Gigi Leung depicts how fate intertwine with our lives and play a large role in it even if we like it or not. The movie was based upon Szymborska ‘Love at First Sight’ something I held close to heart because of the circumstances of life I was in and dealing with then.

As much as fate always plays, we had another encounter thru her work ‘True Love’ early this year – this poem is provoking in every way and notice what you notice from the work – it is truly unique. True love – is it really necessary? How many souls broken by it? How many of us given up hope on it? How many of us turn a cynic by true love? Yet time and time again - I still believe in it. Does it exist – for me – yes it does (ya me the hopeless romantic). Why? Because I believe – “What God put together, no man can divide”.

Jalal ad-Din Rumi wrote this and I find it very beautiful -
“The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere; they are in each other all along”

May all of you find your true love along your journey in life because nothing is ever too late when you encounter true love. :)

p/s: Her work 'The Three Oddest Word', one of her nobel prize winning selection - is profound for contemplation should any of you love poetry that way.

Angel Teardrops

2007-08-17T00:28:00.000-07:00

I can't comprehend my own feelings at the moment -

Angel Teardrops
by Kathleen Sheppard

My guardian angel, once careless and free,

flew into the clouds and lost touch with me.

Her tears were cold and wet, falling on my face.

Her smile had left us without a trace.

Her angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared,

I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare.

I knew that angels, often content,

were very special presents that God had sent.

To see one so sad,

so afraid,

so alone,

had made me weep while the cold winds had blown.

Her wings lost feathers,

comforting and soft,

falling from the stars,

floating aloft.

Her pain was felt throughout the land,

to feel true misery is impossible to stand.

I prayed so that when her hurting stops,

I'll be able to taste the angel's teardrops.

Full Plate

2007-08-14T21:49:00.000-07:00

Moi and the Famous Chef!

Frenzs!

Moi and Tj Leo President Cheng Inn

TJ Leos - ya we were drinking thanks to PP Raymond! ;) hahaha!

Union Leos - 16 - they make me feel 16! *wink*

Just finished reading: Harry Potter – Deathly Hallows, Julia Quinn

Currently Reading:(1) Kybalion(2) Entering the Castle, Caroline Myss (3) The One – Kathy Freston

Just watched:

RUSH HOUR 3 – this is pure laughters, like just so good I laugh non stop. Well to me I think there really isn’t much depth in this movie. The line’s pretty predictable and the villain easily identify from the start. Yet is a good movie for rest and relax after a long day’s work. I think this is also one of the movie that successfully insulted every nation, countries and culture they can relate to. Those jokes are funny to max that we are still laughing during supper and when we meet up again in the weekends! *cheeky smile* Fun seeing JoJo and Grace dancing after the movie – they were like so high – Jo especially – been a long time since I seen such joy in my sister!*wink**wink*

RATATOUILLE – lol.. ya I know I am so lucky to be invited to attend the movie premier in KL last week – so I am not going to spoil it by blogging about the movie. Thot I have to say is a profound and powerful ‘little’ cartoon. I can just resonate so much with this cartoon. I always find cartoon with lots of life hidden meaning to it and the last cartoon I can ‘feel’ and relate so much on a mental and emotional level was the Brother Bear years ago. However for me this one is just so profound, every word heartfelt and penetrating.

Want to watch: BABEL

Just listened: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible

Now listening: Andre Bocelli – Amore

This week has not been easy. No where being the usual luxury of being Jennifer Lim. *wink*wink* Been pack up with lots of work, working till late on some projects. Two companies under my direct management are moving at once securing 3 projects in a week amounting to million dollars – I am so happy and proud. As much as I am very very excited about the whole thing is somehow wearing me out a little mentally. Hehe. To top there so many new business opportunities and ideas that came along the way – faster than I can study and research upon them. ;) However it reinforces my trust on the opportunities the market has got to offer and we just need to have the open mind to explore and accept it. I wish somehow I got the resources (time, people and money) to create all these ideas to reality. It is also very inspiring to know what people are doing out there.

I am pretty impress during a family meeting recently that my dad actually said this to me and JoJo – “just do it ler we going to sell about concept only anyway” – wow my father understands about ‘concepts’ and branding – I am speechless. He does not complain about the $$$$$ we all budgeted into promotions anymore and been pretty encouraging with ‘proper branding and marketing strategy’. Even Terence was laughing in amazement when dad tries to talk about branding with him and JoJo during their usual ‘Saturday breakfast’. So anyone out there praying your parents would change – they probably will you know! Hahaha! Mine just did! *wink*

This week’s highlight of course is none other than my membership interview with PSC. However, is such a highlight that Guan Aik and I are going to just laugh ourselves out with whatever happened during that night. *wink**wink* Sorry some things are really not for public reading. Still I wanna thanks Guan Aik for being such wonderful company that night.

It was also fun attending Tanjung’s Anniversary again – think the last time I attended one was years ago before I left for Australia. Good to see some old faces and new ones as well. I somehow manage to surprise most of the uncles and aunties. The Leos were so hyper these days it is so good to be in their company again. LOL I use to think we are hyper – gosh you guys should see them. Hehe. Is nostalgic though for me to look at them. *wink**wink* You guys really rock!

Was off in KL during the weekend - it just worn me out - mentally, physically and emotionally. Yet I say is all worth it - most of all for the awareness and awakening or probably something in its surface as material as the Louis Vuitton buying experience but in it all contains much more than that - what I wanted to say - mhm - is that - that my darling my love - you are worth it - more than that LV !! *wink**wink*

The romantic me

2007-08-13T19:45:00.000-07:00

Inside Of Me by Jay Scott

If you could see inside my soul
see inside my heart
you would know how I long for you
whenever we're apart

If you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how I cherish you
how much you mean to me

In all the ways you comfort me
the way you hold me near
the way you know just what to do
to chase away my fear

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes
your smile, laugh, your touch
are just a few of many reasons
I love you oh so much

Knowing I can talk to you
about any and everything
and knowing together we will get
through whatever life may bring

I could search the whole world over
and this I know is true
I would never find another love
like the love I found with you

Though with each new day,each sunrise
we can't know what's in store
there is one thing I know for sure
each day I love you more

So if you could see inside my head
if thoughts were things to see
you would know how blessed I feel
to have you here with me.

Your eyes, your smile. Your touch, your kiss.
Your promise, your words. Our everlasting bliss.
- Penelope Bell -

Smell of Roses

2007-08-12T20:21:00.000-07:00

Was in KL again for the weekend. Mhm.. and was staying in friend’s house. When I got into the house there were two large bouquets of roses in the house – one dark red bouquet in the living room and one pure white bouquet in the dining hall. So so beautiful. I took a little while to just be silent to appreciate the roses and I realize with such a busy schedule is a luxury to be away in somewhere that I can just slow down and smell the roses. Do you all know that the red rose’s scent is very much different from white rose?

Roses brought me back to memories of school days – Martin taught me how much life can be learned from the rose itself. To me The Lily is the symbol of elegance; purity and perfection ‘a destination’ while The Rose symbolizes courage, strength, boldness, endurance and perseverance ‘a journey’. While a Lily makes dreams a Rose make it human.

Some roses Quotation/Lesson that I learnt and always love:

'Beauty without virtue is like a rose without scent'

'The fragrance always remains in the hand that gives the rose. Be a rose which gives frangrance even to those who crushes it'

‘Do not watch the petals fall from the rose with sadness, know that, like life, things sometimes must fade, before they can bloom again’

'Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense. So he that dares not grasp the thorn shoould never crave the rose'

'The rose speaks of love silently, in a language known only to the heart.'

‘The red rose whispers of passion, And the white rose breathes of love;O, the red rose is a falcon,And the white rose is a dove.’John Boyle O’Reilly

For me, I am glad that day I “Take time to smell the roses” but even after all this “A Rose is a rose is a rose”. Thank you for the roses.

Am going to get some pure white roses for my room this week, it will be a sweet reminder of the smell of roses.

L'AMOUR VOUS MÈNERA EN ARRIÈRE

2007-08-09T20:35:00.000-07:00

L'AMOUR VOUS MÈNERA EN ARRIÈRE

Saying goodbye is never an easy thing
But you never said you'd stay forever
So if you must go,
Oh, Darling I'll set you free
But I know in time
We'll be together
I won't try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in My Heart I know
Love will lead you back
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days our love
Will lead you back
One of these nights
Oh I'll hear your voice again
You're gonna say
How much you miss me
You'll walk out this door, but
Some day you'll walk back in
Darling I know, I know this will be
Sometimes it takes some time out on your own
To find your way back home
Love will lead you back
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days our
Love will lead you back
Cause I will try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in My Heart I know
Some day I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong.
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back
Love will lead you back
Some day, I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
It won't be long
One of these days our
Love will lead you back

I heard this song played and the words move me. The universe never stops to amaze me. How much we are all inter-connected to one another. The song describes some things that I am going thru now and how a soul I met allows the space for me to walk thru it. At the same time the universe is asking me to allow someone I love dearly to do the same. Is a kind of liberation to be able to do that – to truly experience what unconditional love is and what often only with words we say ‘If you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was’.

LOL. It is not triangle love I am talking of here – it is nothing romantic or actually everything romantic - *wink**wink* I just wanted my sister to know I love her and am prepare to treat her like an adult – setting her free to do what she wants to do – trusting her in her decisions in life and business - thot sometimes habits die hard that we love controlling each other so much. I am sorry. Maybe I am trying too hard again to make the relationship between us work – I am a little frustrated with myself – wish I am better in expressing when it comes to her. I love you Jo.

It reminds me what Hesse, a German-Swiss poet and Nobel Prize winner says ‘Some of us think holding on makes us stong; but sometimes it is letting go’ and yes this is the time. And for someone who takes 15 mins to show me that, the 15 mins that meant so much – because ‘action does speak louder than words’ – Thank You, I want you to know how much that 15 mins meant to me and showing me what it is like to truly set someone free. *smile*

Little updates & some Q&A

2007-08-09T02:10:00.000-07:00

Little updates & some Q&A –

Sunshine – We last talk when I was in Perlis, hey your dad was not there ler so don’t get to tease him about missing you. And you my dear - Cloudy weather huh? ;) Sick – poor thingy! Of course the good news you are getting to go to Queensland soon – so lucky! Better get well soon and like I say - if you need someone to take care of you - please come home - cos your mom is around! HAHAHA! Just kidding! love your site – lots of picture and stories about your new life (actually some part old – craving for Japanese or good food, CARs CARs and CARs *wink**wink*). Of course we should write on bubble milk tea vs TPTL!

MeiMei CheChe – hottest girl in SF! Blog is up – http://ameizingcupcakes.blogspot.com/ - sorry I was a little outdated – I could not access your blog earlier so I continue to leave comment msges on my own blog! Happy Belated Birthday anyway – wishing you ever lasting love, beauty and sexiness just the way you always are! ;) Iphone - so nice – I want a MAC PRO – then an Iphone to match would be just great. Hehehe.. greedy!

Milly – Oktoberfest *blink**blink* - we must do that – and it is always you and your ‘Germanese’. Ardo taking me dancing? LOL - I am stopping over Macau too. I’ll definitely have lunch with someone else, the last time I make lunch appointment with you I ended up roaming around Chung Wan alone. Oh how’s Jeremy – still in Sydney? I was browsing and I saw those pictures we took in HK last year – good memories! How’s Elsa and Paul and the dog – hehehe – tell them I miss their cooking and the turkey – LOL okie okie – I am looking/begging for an invitation to go back and celebrate Xmas in HK this year with you guys… pretty please? *wink**wink* Since Vae got a new place – I heard people’s house - resort type like – exact description of the owner herself “great view facing the mountain as if in Switzerland when the clouds cover the peak – is like living a holiday/dream home” – wahlau eh I also want to stay – I can take care of the orchids. *hint*

Another good news – someone is relocated to Shanghai and relo package include a house and chauffeur – so the fact now I got an additional home to go too with a chauffeur to drive me around – hehehe - *devious mind working* I’ll very likely fly from HongKong to Shanghai – and someone is working very hard to rearrange schedule to be in Hongkong with me! So lets party!!

JA – got your msg late last night but I was in a meeting - sowee. Been few weeks since we last talk – the last month we manage that few emails - hopefully get to talk to you soon. Update update – need to ask you a few things too… and yes I suppose I am seeing you very very very very soon!! Can’t wait so happy!

Bliss

2007-08-08T02:47:00.000-07:00

Just finished reading: Harry Potter – Deathly Hallows (love it – only part I don’t like it that too many characters were killed – realistic but for a children book? Nah! Nikko so want to kill me when I was discussing with Wilfred about the book the other day. Hahaha!).

This week’s novels week– spending time reading Julia Quinn and I gotto say ‘Yes Girls the books’ great!’. We will have so much fun talking and laughing about it. Almost close to my favorite romance author of all time – Dame Barbara Cartland. Of course, this is a modern type of romantic novels set in those olden times but you girls have to read Barbara Cartland because nothing comes close to romances like that! *wink*wink* Guess there is where my ‘hopeless romantic-ness’ build upon.
Currently Reading:
(1) Kybalion
(2) Entering the Castle, Caroline Myss – On the 1st Mansion now – talks about the conflict between the outer and inner self. Beautifully written and explain – mom and I shared so much laughter upon it. Also talks about spirituality versus Mysticism – the journey into the soul.
(3) The One – Kathy Freston (when you have someone to share the thots on – priceless)

Just watched: Transformer (okie okie… YOU WIN! Happy? It is truly a good movie – build up was good, graphic was impressive, storyline was beautiful, expression and spacing of the emotions was terrific and I simply just love the way they deploy the jets) Well is Michael Bay so I should not be surprise right and this time he did not over do the scenes. Lol! Well okie – someone is so enjoying this – thanks for literally buying the tickets and forcing me to watch? Okie okie.. I walk in voluntarily and can’t stand that smirk on your face next to me the whole night – still thank you my dear – is a terrific movie and glad I don’t have to missed it.)

Teaching of Abraham by Esther and Jerry Hicks – Law of Attraction. I just have to say this is one good documentary/movie that you all MUST watch. I won’t spoil the thing By writing more – because something in the world must be felt and experience with the heart. *wink*
Want to watch: RUSH HOUR 3 and BABEL

Just listened: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible
Now listening: Andre Bocelli – Amore

Is a rather speechless week – time just passed, lots of things happen yet everything is falling into places, clearer and clearer. Is a very very blissful kind of feeling. “Blissful” mhm - ‘When you follow your bliss… door will open where you would not have thought there would be doors, and where wouldn’t be a door for anyone else’- Joseph Campbell. That is this week’s flow. Is nice when I make a commitment just a week ago to have a more solid ground, lots of time spend on my own reflecting, contemplating and writing.

Ya I know, I know I say to a lot of you lunches, dinners, teas, meeting up and dates is crazy how my schedule is going at the rate of two week ahead of me – and now having to take time of for myself too – just want you all to know that I am very grateful for the patience and understanding. Please be assure that I did not disappear or ignore or forget anyone – is just that I needed this time to ground my vision and direction. I am just so glad to say I am seeing it – so much clearer than before and the experience of it is ‘BLISS’.

Spend one weekend in Hatjai and Perlis – was a wonderful trip. Lots of food, shopping and fun! The Regent of Perlis was there with His consort at the dinner on Sunday – I have to say I am impressed. Living in Penang I am so not use to the idea of a royal family and its protocol. However, after this experience I am to say I am impress with the Royal family of Perlis – for the down to earth being with their people kind of character, the loyalty shown by their entourage and the joy and sincere presence they extended that night – dancing and laughing with us. It’s truly a wonderful night. The princess is so beautiful and elegant. Is like a fairytale. Nice!

The week went by just a nice mixture of work, social and solitude. Was fun lunching with the Master Chef himself in Soy @ G-Hotel – a joy of knowing what’s real good food – *wink*. Thought we came to conclusion is hard to be low profile in Penang – so – good luck trying! Hahaha!

Ajisan Ramen is open!!! Lol.. yes yes yes!! Pork Pork Pork!!! *wink* JoWei, ST and Nikko had so much fun on my ‘porkiness’ and it just end nicely with that large glass of A&W rootbeer. Hahaha!

Had dinner and jazz at Audee’s on Friday – oh I got news I got news – Paku is playing on Friday night – they are very good and guess what Audee had the recipe for Mudpie!! Terence is just going to laugh at me and with the look at my face when Audee announce it! Lol… is the signature Singapore mudpie that I love so much – sigh writing of it makes me feel like eating one now! Hehehe! Mudpie..mudpei…mudpie…. *laughs* I still remember Michael promise to cook me this mudpie in Melbourne - hey where's my mudpie? hehehe!

Also had lunch at Spice Garden Rasa Sayang – food is good and I love the ambience. Is a long time since I spend a lazy afternoon on Saturday up there like that. Very nice peaceful feeling. Hehehe! Reminds me Eugene Bro used to take us 3 monsters up there for c-o-c-o-n-u-t on Sundays and watching sunset. Nice!

The rest is all my time and work. Work progressing so well – I am amaze with the opportunities the market is preparing itself for. I am constantly impressed with the new ideas, concepts and inspiration that are creating in this world. I am so intrigue by it. Proud to be or rather have my part to play in it. My boss been driving me to think into a deeper level and I am slowly grasping more concepts and ideas. Ironically my work is highly P&C, as much as I wish I can share it with more people. Well well – cest la vie!

Moi? – La Vie Cest Belle!

Khor Kheng Lee

2007-08-05T21:23:00.000-07:00

His MMS this year

Well well, I used to think - to know how many true friends we have is to calculate how many friends I can call at 3am in the morning if I needed to make that call. However, in today’s 24/7 global communication world and all those ‘night owls’ being awake late at night somehow my perspective towards this statement change. Although that, it is still consider rude in any of our culture to call a non close friend too late in the hours at night – therefore, those who are given the privilege has certainly secured their position as being important friends.

LOL – so why the long story? Because not many people in Jennifer Lim’s life can call her at 1am in the morning and say this “hey I have been reading your blog and waiting to be mention – how come never write about me one?” haha! And mom being there her ‘quota’ session in my room the conversation goes like this:

Mom : So late d who’s that?
Me: KK Lee
Mom : Wah Ah Lee long time never see you d ah, when you taking aunty to clubbing?
Me : Wei my mother ask you when you taking her clubbing?
KK Lee: Aunty noler very long time never go d, now only stay at home (however, each time I went to the clubs, and that is RARE I still see Ah Lee there) *wink**wink*
Mom : Then why so long never come see me?
Me: Wei my mom ask why so long never come see her?
KK Lee : Becos aunty both your daughter also don’t want me d…
Mom : Like that ah… so when you gonna…
Me: My mom ask….

Bla bla bla… LOL –end-

So even mom can find it amusing when he call at 1am – KK Lee – you gotto be something man!

So here I am writing about the man who wants to be written about – Mr Khor Kheng Lee. How feels happy d or not? *wink**wink*

Mhm.. Kheng Lee – is in every word of what is describe as a ‘true friend’– loyal, reliable, responsible, caring, thoughtful and someone who is always there 24/7. Our friendship takes us back exactly 10 years now – wow – now I realize is 10 years, we were oriented and inducted the same year into the same Leo Club – and after that the world is ours! Till today we are the in same Lions Club, cracking the same joke over and over again yet never bored about it. What makes KK Lee so special to me is that for the last 10 years he has never forgotten my birthday – even I was in Aussieland or North Pole – somehow or other the birthday message is faithfully delivered on that very date. This year the message came in MMS format in the morning and about 11pm he calls again and says “Happy Birthday dear”. I said, “Thanks, I got your mms this morning” and Kheng Lee says, ‘ya but better make sure, don’t want to break record and then later if forget your birthday sure ‘kena’ lifetime nagging’. Lol !! It is the ‘fear’ motivation now I know. *wink**wink*

So now, since you ‘force’ me to write *mhm I hope I remember what you ask me to write. Hahaha. Just kidding! Just kidding!* these are the reasons that makes KKLee such a special person to me, my family and all the friends we shared –

1) A fiercely loyal friend

2) Available at 24 hours – driver, dinner, accidents, “lost keys” *wink**wink*, listening to my grumbling, sad, depress, happy, celebration, drunk, hungry, bored, heart break, festival, clubbing etc etc etc

3) The only guy who took me shopping so that I can buy for him his first prom date’s dress, hand bags and shoe – and I pick her flowers too. Yalor never send me flowers also!!

4) Take my parents to clubbing – see how many people can do that. Haha!

5) Take me clubbing and be my ‘bodyguard’. Hahaha! Trust me – Kheng Lee is one of the most influential figure around the clubs in Penang and don’t under estimate the word ‘influential’ is goes beyond free, need not queue to get in and reserving the best seats in the club. *wink**wink*

6) Being super protective

7) My 3am mamak mate!

8) Cook ‘cola’ chicken for my mother and buy roti for her!

9) CNN network news. Including where my ‘father’, ‘sister’ whereabouts. Hahaha!! I enjoy this one most I guess!

10) Being there for me at my lowest points of life – although I’ll get scolding for crying in public area – emotional me – ya he is never the ‘I manja you’ type! Sigh!

11) Taking his Gf(s) and potential Gf(s) to my house so my mom can see! *wink*

12) Entertaining me with his sparing partner – Milo Tan who is now in the UK probably went into his PhD d cos no sound no shadow since January this year. Mhm I kinda miss those jokes of hokkien mee, nasi lemak and milo. -sigh-

13) Disappearing a few months off my life and somehow reappear again. Yalor now I realize you n Milo Tan like to play ‘chip more – now you see now you don’t. So the very answer why you weren’t written about in this blog is because you disappear the last few months I started the blog! Lol!!

14) One of those rare person who would do crazy stuff like drive to Genting after clubbing at 3am n then take a spin and come back!! That was so so so cool!!

15) Was there at every dinners and projects I organized – finishing all the food! Okie and doing all the work too!

16) Was there at every of my birthday parties to blow balloons and pick rubbish after that!

17) Was there so that we can all throw him into the pool after those parties clean up!

18) Was there to book my every trip to Pulau Paya!!

19) Was there to send me off when I leave for the country to Aussie – those ungodly hours in the morning – well he is indeed there 24/7.

20) Just by being you and being there!!!!!

K ler… long enough d lor hor? Hehehehe… thank you dear… for all these 10 years of sincere and honest friendship. These 10 years of genuine concern and care. Thank you!!

p/s: I am going to foresee that after this, my left hand, right hand, sai lohs, sai muis, left leg and right leg is going to msg and call me and say – Tai Ka Che only Kheng Lee important ler.. What about us? Lol…. I surrender – you girls and guys are all great souls and it never make me more proud than to have served together with all of you. :)

Dinner at QEII :)

2007-07-27T12:38:00.001-07:00

VIP Dining with a View

Classic Lightings

Lobster ! Yum Yum!

Cough Mixture! ;)

Grass! Grassy Grass! hoho!

QEII, Penang - truly an extra ordinary place to be. The deco is tastefully done and the environment blends very well with each other. Got to thank Aunty A for letting us view the ‘private collections’ and touring us around the outlet. Lol – I am pretty impress with the toilet door – apparently Channel, Japan inspiration! :)

Food is fantastic – lol – Uncle TC is probably right – we had the best of everything because we went Chinese style dining on western cuisine. Dessert was happy endings – when Isabel says “we’ll have everything on the menu”! Hahaha! My recommendation? E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!

However, true discovery for the night - don’t know if you guys did but I heard this many times - ‘if you mix the type of alcohol you drink you will get drunk’. Uncle TC just proven the theory wrong – lol! Started with beer then to wine and finish with whiskey – and I am saying like not just a glass of each – he is still going back to office to work after dinner. This is so cool!! Hahaha!

Thanks to Dato’ Uncle (haha! Love getting on his nerve - I am so enjoying this) for the invitation! We 3 sisters truly get to be ‘kampungan’ all over again!! Baby G – I am so not to drink that grass drink and cough mixture the next round! Lol!! Where are we dining next?

Morning Meditation

2007-07-27T12:07:00.000-07:00

I revive my morning meditation practice this week – lol – ya was being a little lazy and busy the last few months. :)

And one of the answers was discovered to my writing on ‘LOST’ the day before. For me is like, WOW, when we write down and communicate to the universe the universe does feedback! :) The answer just came. I was like amazed! LOL!

I know one person will be truly curious to know my breakthrough because we were having this 5 hours conversation on Tuesday night and he kept pestering me on what open up for me from the sharing that night. *wink* Sorry dearest I wasn’t exactly evading your question on purpose, I was just afraid to face it. Well gotto thank you for being so understanding and letting me off the hook at night. It is true that there is no way when two people share and nothing opens up. Will share with you when we see each other next.

However, I love today’s contemplation for me – ‘Going to the Post Office’

Thoreau -

“You may depend on it, that poor fellow who walks away with the greatest number of letters, proud of his extensive correspondence, has not heard from himself this long while”

Do we listen to ourselves? What does our heart, our mind and our soul says? Do we hear the voices of passion and love, voices of virtue and wisdom? What do I hear in my voice? What do you hear in yours?

I am putting a more solid ground to my life starting 2 nights ago – a promise of more time for quiet contemplation, more time for writing and developing ideas/vision/dreams.

Love this quote I came across last night,

Ralph Waldo Emerson:
What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think. This rule, equally arduous in actual and intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what your duty is better than you know it. It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great person is one who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.

If any of you out there have something to share, do post it! :) Would love to hear your view.

Dinner Experience at Feringghi Grill

2007-07-27T11:41:00.000-07:00

The VIP dining room

The Chandelier

Dessert - Yummy!
More Dessert - Yummy Yummy!

Elmo decided to join us for dinner. :)

I have been dreaming to dine here ever since God knows when but never seems to find someone who is either interested, free or in the same state (right Mr R.Ong?) to dine.

Yet as usual, God's plan is always the most beautiful - my first time at Feringghi Grill will be another lifetime experience of fine dining!

The dinner certain draw a lot of W-O-W factors - VIP room dining, beautifully decorate long table, meticulous layout of cutlery – is just amazing! Yet we are all so casual, totally laid back and relax – the waiters just laugh so much with us or maybe even at us! :)

The food – PASTA by the King of Pasta – Vincenzo Spinosi currently the visiting Chef at Rasa Sayang so we gotto try his entire signature dish menu. I love the selection we we order because we ordered E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G on the menu, including desserts. Hahaha… and even the desserts are made of pastas! It is a truly unique menu. Raspberry pasta mix dessert! Crazy fun!

Lucky I SOS phone on the right day. I enjoyed myself so much last night – laughing and laughing! Thanks Aaron for the invitation and thanks ‘Tai Loh’ Nikko for dinner! You both are AWESOME!

My New Toy!

2007-07-27T10:29:00.000-07:00

My new toy :)

Nokia 6300 - Voted Stuff Reader's Choice 2007 - Best Mobile Phone! Truly thin, classy and in every way sophisticated

However not only the phone is cool, but I find the process of buying the phone truly inconceivable. I was having lunch with ‘The Lunch Gang’ – Aaron, Wilfred etc on Thursday at Gurney Plaza. As gadget kings (ya fully updated walking gadget dictionary) they swap out their new, latest, very sophisticated phone, communicator etc – wow – truly charming! [For the record they all carry at least 2 mobiles each]. So I shared that I am looking to change my mobile and probing to find out which phone is better. Without hesitation Wilfred just said, let’s go mobile shopping after lunch. So off we go after lunch, to this shop in Gurney – Wilfred shows me the Nokia 6300 and there was an offer on the phone. What’s cool is Kok Hing upon hearing I want to buy the phone call his friend and strike a very good deal there and then on the phone. He collected the phone for me the very night and Voila I got my phone when we had lunch at Sky the next day! Hahaha! Talking about service, efficiency and network marketing! I got all that experience in buying a mobile phone – a truly undefined Penang Cultural Experience! :)

Of course that is not the end of the story, hahaha, me being me is just ‘dumb’ when it comes to electronics. I had problem transferring data from my old phone to the new. So I went for S-O-S service – hahaha - thanks to Aaron, Nikko and Kok Hing – they have to – er all I know is ‘bluetooh’, ‘PC Suite’, ‘search’, ‘press ok button’ and again VOILA is all done!!

Hey guys – really thank you. Is a wonderful mobile buying experience – maybe you all want to diverse your business? *wink**wink* I better remember to pay for my phone! hahaha!

World Music Festival - Penang

2007-07-27T09:46:00.000-07:00

Ashwin - The Man! :)

Nikko - our "Tai Loh" - 2nd day

Us on the 1st day!

Me and Jojo! We actually wearing the same blue. Day 1!

Note *mhm - a little drawback of the rain thot I find - we did not take much pictures even so many of us are there. Daniel finally got his Nikon SLR but gotto hide it in the bag. I did not get the picture with the rest too. lol. Poor Terence take pictures for us but dun get to take for himself. Next year, Dan - we going to ask Ash for this special XSC space where we can drink and dance all night! Brother you heard [READ] us okie!! Where was the free flow of beer? *wink**wink*

It such a fantastic event and I am so proud of you Ashwin - the Project Manager! Brother you make us all proud - for having this great idea to bring it to Penang, for all the hard work put into organizing this event - gosh - it is truly the talk of the town. Everyone I meet during the week was like - hey you going to the world music fest this week? where is taman kuari?. You are a true born marketer my dear!

I know there is the rain – but you know what – you are so right – is MUSIC – people who is passionate about music don’t mind the rain! They will be there anyway and judging from the crowd that night – we love the music in the rain! Hahaha!

Got to say Saturday finale was the best – my favorite. They are truly A-W-E-S-O-M-E. I found myself drawn to the guitar and flute sound this time around. Don’t know why, not exactly before but this time these two musical instruments draw me to them. Mhm I am curious too! Can’t wait to get the video clips from Nikko!

Look forward to your Jazz Fest next Ash, and I truly love the ‘See you in 2008’ banner joke! :)
p/s: Jay just send me the song we heard that night from that last group on Sat - wow is so good. Well he is not telling me how he got it thot - magic he says - lol. Anyway thanks!! Its really good!

Lost

2007-07-25T20:42:00.000-07:00

After so many months I realize that there is a part of my emotion emerges - I am still denying it, not feeling it, just afraid. I guess I can’t put it into words – for if I can it will already be clear for me. Anyway this morning this song strikes me – don’t know why but I don’t need an answer for everything right - but it is definately for a reason. Of course we "don’t have to rationalize and analyze every single thing in our life" – *hint**hint* - *wink**wink*

MICHAEL BUBLE

"Lost"

I can't believe it's over

I watched the whole thing fall

And I never saw the writing that was on the wall

If I'd only knew

The days were slipping past

That the good things never last

That you were crying

Summer turned to winter

And the snow it turned to rain

And the rain turned into tears upon your face

I hardly recognized the girl you are today

And god I hope it's not too late

It's not too late'

Cause you are not alone

I'm always there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through'

Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When your worlds crashing down

And you can't bear the thought

I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy

It can tear your soul apart

It can make you feel like you've gone crazy

But you're not

Things have seem to changed

There's one thing that's still the same

In my heart you have remained

And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone

And I am there with you

And we'll get lost together

Till the light comes pouring through'

Cause when you feel like you're done

And the darkness has won

Babe, you're not lost

When the worlds crashing down

And you can not bear to crawl

I said, baby, you're not lost

Memories of Melbourne

2007-07-25T03:11:00.001-07:00

Had some time after class last night, totally exhausted from work, studying, partying and everything - then some nostalgic moment and creativity transpire… my reminiscing is always of Melbourne. Maybe I was once really really happy there…

Max Brenner, Koko Black, Opera n Plays,
They sound like so far away,

Trampoline ice cream - is all in my dream,
Cold Rock with Kit Kat, there is more that I can get,
They both lies in that Glenferrie stretch,

Pancakes at Stoker, by the fire
Brings back memory I so desire,

Il Dolce Freddo for durian ice cream with dinner at Lygon, such a bygone,
Fish n Chips @ Williamstown, can even remember the Kilpatrick Oysters now,

Ruan Thai, where laughters made us high,
Miss Marple's scone and tea, can just make me heart go 'weeeeee',

Bridge Road to Bourke Street, even I found those seductive,
Chadstone and Chapel Street, no way I could resist,

Mt Dandenong, the memory in my mind still so strong,
there was a space I felt totally belong,

There was Fitzroy Garden, where I will visit so often,
it was the answer to all those questions,

Strolling along Yarra alone is something I would always do,
It helps me remember those precious times with you,

All memories lead me back to Melbourne, four years ago;
did I fell in love with the place or did I with you?

Cravings

2007-07-23T00:31:00.000-07:00

:P just finish a 3 hours meeting – straight – mind blowing. The only news is that I slept at 5am last night finishing some work. I am so t-i-r-e-d mentally. Craving for some time and space – my brain… got another meeting in ½ hour time and a business meeting tonight - wonder how I can sustain it.

Really craving for some quiet time, ‘too many minds’ [Last Samurai] and too many things in my mind – maybe I’ll do my beach walk tomorrow – been a while since I did that. Mhm… sand.. sand.. ;)

Party week!!

2007-07-22T11:26:00.001-07:00

Just finished reading: Harville Hendrix - Keeping the Love You Find
Currently Reading:
(1) Kybalion
(2) Entering the Castle – Caroline Myss (Been waiting for this book since February, I am ready for it I guess, was sitting there on The Curve ‘s Border’s book shelf, the only one left)
(3) Harry Potter – Deathly Hallows

Just watched: Harry Porter Order of the Phoenix (This is crazy, we walk out from Music Fest wet and say hey lets go watch Midnight – that’s how all of us ended up there! ;) Thank God for Thomas! Hehehe!! Love it – the movie is good, only thing is that too many emotions all cramp into a short space of time. My favorite scene – part where Voldemort was trying to possess Harry and Dumbledore says something like this “It is not the similarities you possess Harry, is in the difference and you have the choice” and Harry said to Voldemort “You’re the weak one. And you’ll never know love, or friendship..and I feel sorry for you”. Yes is beautiful when love always triumph over everything. It shows us we all have the choice to choose, and the choice is always ours. There also the part when Harry was talking to Luna at the end and Luna says “Things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end if not always in the way we expect.” I realize it dawn itself on me – how true the quote was. How things are truly eternal and there is no way we can lost them.
Want to watch: BABEL (still searching, mhm wonder if its in my house or HJ's)

Just listened: Stacey Kent - You've got a friend, Marianna Leporace - IF
Now listening: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible (Complimentary of HuiJing, stolen from Joanna)

Is a full pack partying type of week - Eric arrive from KL on Tuesday Midnight , Jo pick him up. Grace is back home and free to hang out - WOW can imagine the fun we had - Wii, Dinner & Shopping, Pasar Malam etc. Most of all so much laughters - all for A-P-O-M! :)

CS and LM arrived on Friday, living with me, we basically hang-out, shop, eat, have fun, movies - and looks like everyone is in Gurney Dome on the saturday - hahaha.. I realise now 6-8 of us was having lunch then. Thot dun know why CHT is there - hahaha - and refuse to bring the Harry Porter receipt for MPH... sigh! lol.. well nothing stop Jenn from what she wants I guess - ended up getting it from Tesco anyway! hahahaa..somemore cheap!

and Mr Dom Quah SC is back from melbourne - gosh full on aussie accent - we don't understand you half the time mate! hahaha! Well he won't admit I am the me he saw in melbourne. Lol! I still like the reaction he gave Jojo - "That is so not your sister" hahaha

There was also World Music Festival, CLS Food and Fun Fair - is just such a crazy partying week. I only had 3 hours sleep every night... still is all worth it!

Happy Birthday Darling Vae!

2007-07-19T04:25:00.000-07:00

What makes a Best Friend?

Y-O-U

Lin - Thank you for always being there for me, for trusting me with your deepest thoughts and sharing them so sincerely with me. You are the strongest woman of all the women I ever meet. Darling, you have all it takes to be happy and successful; no one has it like you! You will always be an inspiration to me. You are very real as a person and straight forward in your opinions. That is what I cherish most about our friendship.

You be on your soul searching journey soon – London-Spain. No better choice! I am sure you will be mesmerized by the culture, art and architecture they held for generations. Most of all you will be touch by the warmth of the people because you are such a warm person at heart. Enjoy your holiday, may it be filled with breakthroughs for you like mine for me. We will be enjoying a holiday together very soon in October and then you can tell me all about it. *wink**wink* Arrangement all confirm and done. Will see you very very soon!

Happy birthday Today - 19072007

With gratitude for the values you uphold, the trust and faith you give, the dreams you believe, the legacy of love you pass along – let’s celebrate!!

Profound weekend

2007-07-18T21:31:00.000-07:00

This got to be the best things that happen to me!! Is just got to be the most powerful course I ever went thru. It is very hard to communicate it in words - very well like I wish but is just an entire experience by itself. I love Kat's description of it –

A-S-T-O-U-N-D-I-N-G

It total a new concept, to be at the space of consciously picking to be ‘I don’t know, I don’t know’ – a space where there is nothing but possibilities. It is a place where not innovation but invention takes place. A space where creativity lives. I know a lot of us now would have probably gone over Joseph Murphy’s Power of the Subconscious Mind. What I am saying here is – taking that in mind, bringing forth the subconscious to the level of consciousness and basing our life on that concept.

The biggest opening for me was when I walk thru that door after lunch on Sunday, and look around my course mates. I see myself in everyone. I acknowledge that part in me as they reflect to me and say – wow this is all about ‘we are all one’. This is all about us being connected to each other as one. At that very moment, I went into a deeper level of inner bliss and I found another level of letting go surface. I was in ecstasy!

Mom and JoJo also went thru the course together, and found a lot of breakthrough for themselves. I am so proud with JoJo’s sharing; my sister is really turning into a powerful, confident and assertive woman! I will not share what it is for her and mom because I strongly feel is a very personal experience in itself. I will leave the space for them to express it on their own if they ever want to. I am just filled with joy the transformation that we have during those days!

Despite the hard work and training for 3 days, we manage to indulge ourselves in very good meals for lunch and dinner. :) The luxury of traveling with mom and JoJo – shopping, dining and discover of new places to eat!

To my two angels I am staying with, thank you for extending such warm hospitality. They literally pamper us crazy - big and spacious room, breakfast on the table, a maid to do everything plus massage for me at night! Hahaha! Thank you CS and LM!! Thank you Cham Pai – you are so sweet. I will be in KL very very often!! Hahaha!

I also had a great time catching up with Jimmy and Tina after their trip to Bangkok and before they leave back to San Fran! I will see you both very very soon!!! I miss you both already!

And my trip is never complete with ET’s company. Thanks for being my chauffer, my clown and for picking on me! I know you miss me – can’t do anything since I am so adorable. Hahaha! Thanks for being so sweet and I love the optimism you hold in life and how you could laugh about everything – excluding wanting to throw me off the cliff. Hahaha!!

Thank you all for making my trip to KL so memorable, powerful and totally ASTOUDING!

Escalating good news

2007-07-18T21:24:00.000-07:00

oh ya - pls welcome Tim Tam to the family! Apparently he was sitting there waiting for me for breakfast @ Evergreen Laurel. *wink**wink* Why Tim Tam? Well the first dog I fell in love with was Cookie and then my sister got Oreo - so this one shall be Tim Tam - also because I am missing Australia so much! Thanks to my two dearest, I love this belated birthday present!

Just finished reading: Harville Hendrix - Keeping the Love You Find
Currently Reading: Kybalion

Just watched: Die Hard ( Laughing all through the movie, is just so good after such a tiring week to laugh like that – well Mr Most Eligible Bachelor is going to gloat and take all the credit, right? *wink* Love the jokes!)
Want to watch: Harry Porter Order of the Phoenix, BABEL (recommended by a very good friend, must go and look at HuiJing's DVD stash - is definetely going to be good - why? U ask why? Cos Brad Pitt mah - hahaha)

Just listened: Stacey Kent - You've got a friend, Marianna Leporace - IF
Now listening: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible (Complimentary of HuiJing, stolen from Joanna)

This week is still very H-I-G-H. Imagine the flow of energy from nostalgic to ECSTATIC. Is crazy! I was so smart to walk into my own door last week, literally just walk into it. Thank God for that I ‘woke up’ I guess. Hahaha! Really like woke up to a breakthrough. I am on my knees again! Just as I was getting hook to the feelings of being nostalgic, thinking the last 6 months of amazing and life changing experience I went through, the energy came and bring me to a higher level of excitement. WOW! WOW! WOW!

I cannot believe the amount of good news – in fact GREAT news I receive. Is truly the Goddess of Tyche’s energy flowing this week – is mind blowing for me! Furthermore it hits me since Monday – 1st day of the week – WOW! The Goddess of Fortune certainly brings life changing news – two particular news that will change the whole direction of my life.I wish I could share, I will later, when the time is right – there is a time for everything, this is not the time yet. :) The mood is EUPHORIC!

I just want to say Thank You for trusting me and believing in me. Thank You for having such a high regard on me. Thank you for loving me.

I also want someone to know - I am so proud of you, brings me to tears of joy when I heard the news. Congratulations from my heart and soul! I so want to tell the world. Yet as always, you are someone so humble and down to earth, ‘Humility’ at the truest level. You will always be the person I admire most in the world.

Other flow of great news –

Congratulations Dr Hide! My uni-mate in Melbourne who is now doing his POST doctorate research in Pennsylvania. You make me proud! Lol… another Post Doctorate – starting my Doctorate now is also a challenge for me d, how to do post-PhD? Stanford send me a broacher last week – so tempting.

Baby Grace – CONGRATULATIONS!! You made it!!! We are all so proud of you! We share your joy!! Girl power!!

My four ‘uncles’ – Congratulations on your ‘Grandfathership’ *grin* ;) Indeed we are all pleased to share this milestone with all of you.

JA – Congratulations for the increment in your ‘toy fund’. Any donations over to Jenn Toy Fund? 1 – 2.70 leh! *wink**wink* I also want new toy!! Hahaha!

Highly likely to return to Aussie in September – time to polish my clubs! Hahaha!

San Fran - LA – “San Diego – Mexico – Las Vegas’s” trip is also more solid now – late 1st quarter next year.

Vae’s leaving for London-Spain, I so want to go but I think Jon will kill me if I tell him I need more leave. Hahaha! So *jealous* imagining she and Yen Wei shopping in London – sigh!! Best friends! *blek*

Is the most tiring week for me this week, thanks to the adrenaline charge it helps keep me awake, I only got 3 hours a day! I so want to sleep! Spending the weekend in KL. I wrote about time last week - God can I have 27 hours a day, then I get 6 hours to sleep at least! hahaha! Anyhow all the celebration of news is making it worth it!

Oh ya, this week also highlight the date with 'Penang Most Eligible Bachelor' certainly blogging material kind of date - but I won't say anything except usually I am the one crying this time is kind of unique - he 'drop some tears' in front of me - right? *wink**wink* I am just mirroring your 'ruthless' standards dear. :)

After thots: Trust the flow of life!

A week of Love and Marriages

2007-07-09T10:03:00.001-07:00

Just finished reading: Harville Hendrix - Keeping the Love You Find
Powerful and insightful about relationship in the modern sense, talk about the basic and core of human instinct wanting to be loved, arguing why being single is the ideal position to learn and improve the chances of finding and keeping love, also filled with tools that help me review my goals, fears and dreams. Touch on the Imago and why ultimately being in a relationship is the only way to transformation. Can be a little technical and dry for one who is not familiar with psychological terms and theories. Love the part that says that, is best to live one’s life to the fullest being at any stage. If you are single then enjoy the single life to the best, if not, there is a very likely that even at 60 some seek a divorce just to fulfill the soul’s journey of walking a single’s life. Deep thot.
Currently Reading: Kybalion (Need time to digest this – more profound than I can gather – love and hook on the principle of correspondence and principle of polarity. Maybe I’ll write more on this later) and Jared Diamond's Collapse (putting this aside first, cannot take 2 heavy conceptual books in one goal).

p/s: I realize arranging/spacing reading material systematically can be a powerful practice.

Just watched: Ocean 13 (Good… very good… very very good. WHY? Cos there is Brad Pitt lor. Hahaha!)
Want to watch: Die Hard (3 adults cannot decide on a date because they are either busy sitting in Sega’s drinking Guinness in the afternoon and too drunk to watch a movie or busy match making)

Just listened: Stacey Kent - You've got a friend, Marianna Leporace - IF
Now listening: Michael Buble – Call Me Irresponsible (Complimentary of HuiJing, stolen from Joanna) hahaha!! It good as usual – cos is Michael Buble. Some songs reminded me of some very good times in my life! Sunshine is also listening to Buble but the older album – the one with Home in it. Makes him miss home. When you coming back? TPTL – TPTL – TPTL! Then someone needs to drive that car… your sound system need tuning… come back ler.

Hehehe! A little sick this week –and it’s just pack with work and Nikko Tan’s wedding! Yes bro, how lucky you are to make half the Penang busy for your wedding! Hehehe! It truly one of those fairy tale like wedding – the theme for the GHotel ‘English Garden’ is truly what the theme name repute it to be. Roses, lilies, orchids, flaunt with hundreds of candles all around the ballroom with little bulb lights on the background of Nikko and Mandy’s name – Enchanting! Wilfred and Kean Beng’s speech acclaim as the highlight – the Hokkien words we learn and master after that – thot they can start writing a dictionary. Hahaha! The night as 32 was full of fun... casual, laid back and friendly – exactly the personality of the bridegroom himself! The fun we have – intoxicated (purely becos of the drinks) hahaha! Thanks to Wilfred - my driver and photographer for the night *wink**wink* and is great finally to meet Nikky!

Also highlight for the week is Min & Wil’s return from NY and Jimmy & Tina’s return from San Fran.

Was great hanging out with Min and Wil again. Hahaha! I-Phone – can’t believe Wil walk into the store the day they launch –enjoying the red carpet treatment and spend 2 hours looking at it then NOT BUYING!!!! Wil seriously try the dog trick then if it works – I’ll get my consultancy charges in the form of the I-Phone! Anyway, love the dinner company, thanks for the love and concern and that very wise piece of advice! It is reminiscing to be able to enter that space of ‘American’ way of life again. Hahaha! Thanks for taking my stuff back for me – so *happy* “New York” is finally sitting on my table now. *grin*! Mhm.. too bad never bring back a New York boyfriend for me and still teasing me about the Korean boys!

It is great to finally see MS again, as ‘charming’ and ‘lovable’ as before – complain I never inform him about me leaving for the States – sigh I wonder who is the one spending months in New York without telling me!! I won’t comment further – scare of his ‘powderful’ sense of language. My co-author to be certainly has his reputation to keep!

Tina and Jimmy’s back from San Fran *Huray* and they brought me a very lovely gift! Limited edition eh, dun play play! :) Hehehe! Thank you thank you!! Love it!! Great to finally find time to catch up with Tina, miss those times when we talk till wee hours in the morning or us bullying Jimmy! I will always remember the love you both showered me while I was there.

Now I am nostalgic again – cheekily this time I am missing US. Still a very lovely dovey week – and with all the marriages – 070707

CONGRATULATIONS:

Nikko & Mandy
Anson n Karen
PK & Jin

May you be blessed with the joy of sharing the love of a lifetime, in sharing a lifetime of love and in loving two hearts as One.

I am so happy!!

My Sister - The Woman Power

2007-07-09T10:02:00.001-07:00

WOW! What does it feels like to have you covered on The Star newspaper?

Friday 06 July 2007 - woman power - that is none other than my sister - Ms Joanna Lim, Managing Director of Jojo. I’ll try to get a scan copy to show off!

Besides being my biggest critic especially in fashion and my greatest source of pa..i..n err no, I meant - inspiration. Hahaha! Just kidding! Jojo is my best sister (by default obviously cos I only got one). I am trying to be nice … trying. K ..k…

Jokes aside,

Jo – for the record -

All I want to say is that is a very well written article and good choice of placement. The ad is very beautiful. I am also the proud owner on that very set of jewellery. I wore that to the ‘glamour party’ Ch’ng organize and it already receive so many compliments that night. You are a very creative jewelry designer. I love your ideas and I am truly proud of you! Thanks for making the set for me even at the very last minute you got to fly to Sabah. Thanks for making me feel beautiful and giving the sense of appreciation on what jewelry/accessories is. No doubt - You are the STAR!

p/s: Jo says I did not show any pics - so well there is the Masterpiece by our Master Designer.

p/p/s: Okie a picture of the designer herself. :)

Jenn's Thoughts on Love

2007-07-09T09:50:00.000-07:00

An email I wrote all my friends today - just incase I missed out on the email or the email did not get thru I wish to record my feelings here -

Dear All,

Hey I somehow come across this article today. Maybe I have been more than nostalgic this week emotionally and I found this article to be very 'heart opening'. To top that, lots of weddings on 07-07-07 (ya being a hopeless romantic you who knows me well knows how much is takes me into the air), brings me to realign my believe and thinking on the very word 'love' - one of those topics that move us and affect us very much especially at our age.

I can sense, experienced and also shared to know that most of us is going thru a lot this time in term of our love life - all the dynamics - falling in love or breaking up, getting married or going thru a divorce, learning to let go or learning to let new people come into our life, want to 'renew' our long term relationship - different individuals different lessons. Probably is the effect of the opening of the 'sontara' portal.

Anyway, I love the ending of this article - There is a time for everything - Ecclesiastes 3, been with me since Daniel's wedding last year december. I happen to read it when I page up the bible during the church service. Vikas Malkani's quote is also something I wrote down just after I return from the States. "Growing in love" is something I felt I have been going thru since I left for US. Not romantically in love, but I find myself opening up to the different facets of love. I learn that love comes in after gratitude. Love comes in many forms, Love is something that is inherently in us. Is all coming back now... there is a time for everything... and yes the maturity will tell us which is the right time for what.

Now I am at a point to a new opportunity/challenge in life - when I look back I somehow knew what happen, have to happen, all for the highest good - all those separate incidents take took me here to this point - I am grateful for the journey itself. Today I understood more, why this point. Is what I prayed for all this while - love, gratitude and being authentic. Being true to myself and living my deepest desire and passion. I just watch Evan Almighty and that conversation the wife with 'God' touch me.

"When you pray for patient, do you think God will give you patient or the opportunity to be patient? If you pray for courage, do you think God will give you courage or the opportunity to act with courage? If you pray for your family to be close, do you think God will just make them closer or an opportunity for you to become closer?" and God said in one part " Remember, whatever I do, I did it because I love you" ;)

These 6 months brought me to an important journey, a one I faced up the past and accept it lovingly, learn what is forgiveness and gratitude and most of all - Growing Up - even as a C-U-T-E Baby Elephant. :) I also learn to live fully present at this moment, and still learning this (trust me is hard) and sometimes allowing myself to wishfully or dreamyly live towards the future (my best friend(s) knows what occupies my mind most of the time for the future, hahaha!!).

It been half a year gone 2007, is the best half year of my entire life. Is the half that I learn to live just being myself rather than the mask I put up sometimes in the past. Is the half I live being true to me and learning the most important thing - loving myself and loving all around me in the purest and most sincere form.

Thank you for stepping into my life, because all of you left footprints, while you love me or you hate me, while you accept me or reject me, while you think of me or forget me, while you care for me and those time you were selfish, while you are there and those time you are not just because - there is a time for everything. :)

To everything there is a season,and a time to every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die;

a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal;

a time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to laugh;

a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;

a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and a time to sow;

A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate;

a time of war; and a time of peace.

Enjoy the article below -

Cheers with Lots of Love, As always ME,
-JennJenn-

A new-age approach to soulmates

By Krristy Lam

What's the difference with a soulmate and twinflame? The often used but confused terms are in fact distinctly different...Soulmate is an oft repeated moniker and term of endearment used by people who are in love (or think that they are) through the ages. Sometimes, one who has been bestowed the title of “soulmate” has his/her title usurped by a seemingly more eligible soul. At others, it seems almost impossible finding someone who is deemed worthy enough of such regard. Also, there is a certain flippancy with which the term soulmate is dispensed in this day and age. So what exactly is a soulmate?

Life can be viewed as one big adventure where our experiences make up the movie of our lives. All the souls we meet who contribute to the plot and significant moments are all soulmates of some sort. This includes your erstwhile family, close friends, co-workers, partners and almost everyone you’ve slept with! The media including Hollywood and Bollywood would like to have us believe that there is a “One True Soulmate” waiting for us in that big somewhere out there. Without meaning to burst any bubbles, we set ourselves up for disappointment clinging on to the romanticised notion that there’s a singular Prince(ss) Charming who is the proverbial love of one’s life. Every soulmate we meet has something to contribute to our overall growth, through both happy and sad life lessons. Broadly categorised, soulmates fall into the following three categories: karmic, companion and twin flames.

Karmic Soulmates

Jacky, 25, a Marketing Executive: “I once went out with a girl for over three years who almost destroyed my sense of self with her criticism and unkind comments. Hurtful terms like ‘psycho’ and ‘crazy’ were leveled constantly. I was tormented by the idea that I was scum and not worth loving! It was only after months of counselling that I managed to turn my back once and for all on her and break off all contact.”

Karmic soulmate relationships are usually characterised by their love/hate intensity which can send one to the pinnacle of happiness and plunge the same person to the very abyss of depression at the next instant. Usually, these relationship do not (and should not) last for very long as they have the propensity to “break” a person in all sense of the word. Paradoxically, they are also hard to get out of as there is an unhealthy obsession to “make things right” come hell or high water on the part of one or both participants.

Adds Jacky: “It was evident my ex had already started on another relationship but I stubbornly refused to take into account all the hard facts which lay before me buying into her honeyed words. I made attempt after attempt to please her and tried desperately to work things out. The turning point came when I refused to be treated like dirt any longer and gained the strength to walk away. From someone who used to be attracted to people who never made me feel good about myself, I broke the vicious cycle at long last when I sobered up to the fact that I deserve respect and kindness from my partner.”

Karmic soulmates do have their purpose as they are often important life lessons reflecting a certain aspect of us that needs attention and improvement. From Jacky's experience above, he needed to work on her self-confidence and truly believe that he was someone worthy of a loving and kind romantic relationship. It was only with that realisation that set him free from the cycle of being involved with emotionally abusive individuals. Sometimes, people play the role of absolute idiots in our lives to wake us up to what we will or will not tolerate. The more dense (or stubborn) among us might require a succession of idiots to finally be aware of what aspect of us needs growth and therefore break the cycle. The point is, instead of clinging on to a relationship that is not working and oscillating between anger and “love” for the person, it’s better to recognise the life lesson(s) it brings and leave the relationship before it turns into something uncontrollably hideous. Acrimony and disharmony never got anybody anywhere. There is more than a kernel of truth in the old adage “what does not break you makes you stronger.”

Companion Soulmates

On a lighter note, not all soulmate relationships have to be gut wrenching life lessons. There is hope for a comfortable and amiable partnership where intimacy and friendship rank side by side each other. This best friend cum lover is often known as a companion soulmate. Albert bears testament to the existence of such relationships. Both professionals in their mid 30s, Albert and his partner Wing have been together for the past five years. They are also proud “parents” to their dogs Clive and Lucky who get along splendidly without a trace of “sibling” rivalry.

“Albert and I are at the point in our lives where we have pretty much been there, done that and want only to spend an enriching life together. We respect each other’s space and individuality despite sharing a life,” says Wing.

Enthuses Albert: “I cannot further emphasise the importance of growing as a couple. Despite having our own interests and group of friends, we find that sharing our experiences and working things through together, even problems, contribute to our individual and total growth.”

Indeed, companion soulmates offer support, encouragement and a steady supply of love to see us through the ups and downs of life. They are the pillars of strength when we need it most, the ever reliable shoulders to cry on as well the ones we want to pop the champagne with having scored a certain goal in life. These relationships often require and afford to its participants a certain level of maturity, understanding and commitment to keep the fire going. We often meet such soulmates later in life after we have sowed our wild oats and learnt enough life’s lessons to ensure a peaceful and blissful partnership. Companion soulmates are those we want to be with at the end of the day in a rocker reminiscing about the good old days.

Twin Flames

Of all the different kinds of soulmates, twin flames are the ones we feel that instant electrifying connection and passion that defies the description of words. We can have many karmic or companion soulmates in our lives but we all each only have one twin flame. Twin flame soulmates are literally two halves of the same soul, the yin and the yang of every being. The missing piece of a jigsaw that is needed for the whole picture; for divine union and completion.

However, it is at this point that I must add that twin flame soulmate relationships are very, very rare. The path of twin flames is also often fraught with difficulties and they face a lot of obstacles in coming together .

Hold your horses before everyone trots off in search his/her twin flame, Twin flames seldom incarnate on the earthly plane at the same time and when they do, it is often to fulfill a pivotal life mission. So the flowers, candle light dinners and walks under the stars can go right out of the window if you are in a twin flame relationship. Instead, the stage is set for the dynamic duo to contribute positive changes to the world a la Batman and Robin.

Still, the earth moving love and passion twin flames have for each other is nothing short of a heavenly revelation. After all, Whitney did croon that “learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.” In a way, loving a twin flame is akin to loving oneself profoundly as you are in essence two parts of the same whole. It is the closest we can get to experiencing heaven on earth. Ultimately, all of us seek to fulfill an underlying need for completion and utter belonging be it through relationships, physical union or even by way of religion. The means we go about doing it is not important. When twin flames have found each other, there will be no need for any other and the importance of accomplishing their life purpose together supercedes the desire for personal happiness, gratification and ambition.

In love, as with pretty much everything else in life, there is no hard or fast rule. This article is not meant to pigeonhole or stereotype relationships, but to act more as a guide to the different types of soulmates. There is a time and place for everything. A time to let go, a time to hold on. It is with much wisdom and maturity that we know when to do what’s meant to be done.

Having been through my fair share of relationships, I have come to realise that it isn’t how long we have together that counts, but the quality of the time spent as partners and how the experiences have shaped us to the people we are today. I shall leave you with a favorite quote of mine from Love Sutras by new-age guru Vikas Malkani: “There’s a limited amount of time we can spend with each person but an unlimited amount of love we can give during that time. So give, in all the ways that we possibly can, while we still can.”

Lee Kiang's Wedding Photo

2007-07-01T21:24:00.000-07:00

A Night

2007-07-01T14:10:00.000-07:00

-A Night-

A night for thinking.
A night for pondering.
A night to decide.
A night to mend old wounds.
A night spend alone.
A night to wish old friends goodbye.
And a night with family before silently slipping out the door
and dissappearing into the world outside.

You wrote this for me about 2 months ago... I wrote something in return to this poem, did you keep the copy? I just felt the poem strongly tonight. Maybe is me being nostalgic or maybe like you said - is just the moon. ;)

Ending June

2007-07-01T12:17:00.000-07:00

Just finished reading: STARDARD OPERATING PROCUDURES (no comment) hahaha!

Currently Reading: Jared Diamond's Collapse (think I will take months to finish this book) and Kybalion (Robin's going to say : Jenn and her cheem cheem stuff)

Just watched: Shrek 3

Want to watch: Ocean 13 (is only on 5pm this week - dun know if I got a chance to catch it. Sigh!)

Everyone says Transformer is good - is just I am not a fan so I not crazy about watching - thot people are still trying to convince me to go .. I'll give in if the group pick if for this week's outing and maybe we should also plan something for Suan's er.. celebration and farewell?

Mati Kuat/Susah Ke 4 [Die Hard] - ;) I sure want to watch this one - only thing is Bunnie, Excalibur Ho and Dr Kenneth Khoo are highly unstable and uncertain individuals - don't know if watching with them is a wise choice. For their 'c-u-t-e baby elephant' I sure hope they don't mess this up! Please do not attemp another match making service!

Just listened: Edwin McCain - I could not ask for more

Now listening: Stacey Kent - You've got a friend (Still Addicted) and Marianna Leporace - IF (This is the song that made me thot of Hong's leaving that afternoon I called him).

Check it out so cool! http://www.geocities.com/inrbeauti/ART.html

Marvin, wah 'tembak' me ah? hahaha... okie just dun add tears to my food on sunday okie - 3rd week sunday afternoon lunch-22nd July deal! Let me arrange and see how many people - maybe I'll ask KB if he is game for it - er.. wonder if KelKel is back from Swiss then... mhm.. your sister n Joey coming? Toasted cheese sandwich without vege - AGES - cos nobody know how to order for me or cook for me *hint**hint* hahaha.. Those were good memories huh? I'll remind you what's going to happen on the 4th weekend when we meet on the 3rd weekend!! hahaha!!

I was crazy enough to want to fly to Langkawi for a day on sunday on friday. Of course for the obvious reason of someone I care and love enough make a phone call 1 HOUR, yes ONE hour before she fly and say - Jenn is Langkawi near Penang. Can you come? Hahaha! Best friend you call them! Too bad the flights were full, sigh and miss the opportunity to do something spontaneous and crazy. BTW girl, next time you decide to do something like that - 1) call ahead for one week's notice OR 2) at least choose an island with a bridge! hahaha! Sorry I don't get to see you this time - lets hope you get to fly to Penang in August if not I should be in Singapore - more likely October. Still I think doing Langkawi for a day trip would be a worthwhile spontaneous fun - I might just do it! ;)

K.. time for work - btw

Note* reminder to blog about the Most Glamourous Party in Town with Pictures!

Time

2007-07-01T10:05:00.000-07:00

Time passes so fast - faster than I am able to write - ;)

is already officially July 1st - I have lived half of 2007. How's 2007?

M-A-G-I-C-A-L

in every way.

1st January 2007 – Fire works on the ship, drinking champagne and ended up walking in the rain in New York City… truly a lifetime experience. Morning, I was having breakfast with Yen Wei, Dean and JiEun eating Korean rice cake. By noon I was in New York City roaming around SOHO’s shopping area (Oh ya the Apple Concept store’s there too), went to Union Square, NY University and end up on a dinner date with Daewon and all – cheekily arrange by Yen Wei n JiEun at this quaint little Italian Restaurant which I am still missing the crème burlee and apple martini! Hahaha! Not to forget I got drunk that night on shoots of Barcadi. Fingers cross Dean deleted those pictures! Hehehe! Not that drunk to miss strolling across Central Park and ended up the whole day at the Metro the next day. Thanks to Daewon for picking such a beautiful route to walk.

31st January 2007 – The day before I left Los Angelas – I was also sitting in a charming little Italian restaurant in Huntington Beach, Orange County with Michael and Huoi. At the airport, what they said to me was the most touching and generous things I ever heard, that change me forever - to who I am now.

1st February 2007 – I touched down at Penang airport, received by the two utmost important people in the world to me - My dad and mom. Ended up breakfast at ‘Wang Chau Chui’ – obviously my favorite food. Dinner at CRC with Grace and Family – surely make Grace ‘firery’ to the sense to Volcanic Eruption should I mention New York to her ever again! Hahaha!

1st March 2007 – I was in Bangkok having a good Thai lunch at the Hotel – the food was delightful. Sleep after lunch and later had a good Thai Massage (paid by JoJo even better.. hahaha) before dinner with Uncle ChatChai and Uncle Hong. Ended up big time shopping at Central – too bad the midnight sales were not on yet. ;)

1st April 2007 – Had the luxury of lazing at home, my 1st Chinese class – also 1st month into my first job and my very first pay cheque! ;)

1st May 2007 – The night before till over midnight – did we finish 2am or 3am that night? Was with the X-SCers at Daniel’s house – our first Wii Experience. Was a crazy crazy night – filled with food and fun! That night also cost me my current RM2000 addiction experience now happily shared (more like took over) by my dad! Only the addiction not the cost of the addiction thot! Hahaha! Wii!! If you guys are really interested to know what happen to us during Wii check out MalMal’s entry on http://blog.malcolmfoo.com/?p=22 Pictures says more than a thousand words! I took the picture Julian lying down!! I like that!! Hahaha! Anyway, some of us meet up again the next day and spend the entire day together Xbox-ing (ya more console games, and I beat MalMal and Julian in racing!!), doing photography, checking out websites and dining – seafood and ribs! More food! Hehehe

1st June – Canada. Was at the SummerHill Winery tasting Ice Wine – which no surprise I fell in love instantly with the taste! ;) Had a satisfying Thai Lunch and ended up with a scrumptious seafood dinner in Vancouver. We had oysters, lobster, geoduck, and salmon etc– so so d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s! Later at night Jojo and I went out exploring Robson Street and its surrounding before we get ourselves some warm drinks at Starbuck. I spend the later night in my hotel (tallest in Vancouver) room watching the night lights of Vancouver bringing me back to the memories of the night watching night lights over San Francisco city at Twin Peak with Jimmy and Tina. It’s just so mesmerizing!

1st July – Spend half the day sleeping – hahaha – becos was at Upper Penang Road the night before with X-SCers. Woke up when Godma called me for lunch, so ended up food tasting for Nikko’s wedding luncheon while he enjoys his Sunday watching Transformer – Bro, you going to owe me big time for this one! Hahaha! Dinner was fine at ‘LauEe’ for Joyce’s farewell. Mhm.. very nostalgic dinner. Parents and friends discussing about their ‘younger days’, we all discussing about Melbourne.

I miss Melbourne, more than usual. Talk to JA last week; make me miss Melbourne even more. He’s trying very hard to convince me to be back there. Then as I talk to Joyce about the do’s’ and places to go… it brings back even more memories. Think Joyce and family must be having the same emotions we went thru 3 years ago, all the anxiety, excitement, uncertainty, adventure lump into one emotion. Melbourne, Melbourne, Melbourne. Joyce – I am pretty sure you will fall in love with it, just like I did faithfully in 2003 and many others – before and after!

Half a year passed by, like I said every moment’s magical in itself. 2007 – I have never been happier in my life! A very good friend commented to my sister during lunch this week after not seeing me for more than half a year “Jenn smiles with a glow inside out and there are those sparkles in her eyes I have never seen before”. 4 months into a new job which I love tremendously, uncountable loving new and old friends entering and leaving, new path and commitment level in my soul’s growth, financially independent (btw I was offered my very own first principal card – a Standard Charted Platinum, my very own card!) and yes I lose 'some' weight, haha - maybe because I start eating vegetable and salad– okie don't give me that shock and disbelieve face - YES I am eating salad and vege! hehehee! Is all like a dream come true!

Now I am full or excitement and curiosity of the journey the next half of the year. I am still practicing to allow grace to enter at every moment. Yet I cannot help it but just wonder…

“Moonlight, light rays of happiness streaming thru your window pane. Dark skies lit up by that iridescent globe. Peeping thru the clouds, shy and yet boldly showing off its glowing rays. Lunacy, tides and emotions riding on the crests and troughs. Our moon often taken granted, rarely appreciated. Worshipped as a goddess, claimed by many to be green cheese, conquered by mankind. Truly something to admire”

Someone send this to me last night, I guess he is as nostalgic as I am this week. Anyway, if any of you did notice – the moon was truly bewitching last night.

Time with Mommy and Yes to Party

2007-06-28T08:41:00.000-07:00

Huray mom is back and I spend the entire night shopping, eating and chatting with her. I miss our daily '3 hours'. Hahaha. Nikko knows what I meant! ;) Is just so fun getting to do the mother-daughter stuff all over again!

Oh ya you all have to leave a name or at least a way I could identify who is that, if not no way I could know who's anonymous on comments! ;)

Anyway, yes JennJenn –IS GOING to the party! *Grin* Found a new dress – so YES I got something to wear! I love it! Mom and Sister love it! Is now hanging in my bedroom! *Big Smile* and mom got me a lovely pair of new shows (k Marvin you are right and sharp - SHOE not Shows) to go with *Sweet*! And of course ‘The Penang Most Eligible Bachelor’ agrees to be my partner for the night ‘In Principle Right?’ Well, ‘In Principle’ Ch’ng will admit you into the ballroom. But then, I shall go with you tomorrow ‘In Principle’ ONLY if you show up with flowers! Hahaha! Just kidding!

Best news – JoJo’s going to be my jewellery designer. Yes even at the very last minute! How sweet is my sister! *Applaud* - for the very best and creative jewellery designer in town!

Perfect - now I get to feel like Cinderella! *wink**wink*

Most Glamorous Party in Town

2007-06-27T20:31:00.000-07:00

Most Glamorous Party in Town

I received an invitation for the most glamorous party in town this morning and guess what I need to find someone to go with in 5 mins! All that Ch’ng’s fault ler! Hahaha! Okie okie.. he is sweet enough to notice I am not there in the list and call to make sure I am not missed out and then let me bring a partner along for his super expensive and famous party. How to find such a wonderful friend right? :)

Partner… Dresses… Do I wanna go?

This week

2007-06-27T00:47:00.000-07:00

Just finished reading: Dr John F Demartini's The Heart of Love ( Sweet & downright truthful and realistic)
Currently Reading: STARDARD OPERATING PROCUDURES of different nations (ya that is what I see, eat and sleep everyday this week) & Jared Diamond's Collapse (very very mind opening)

Just watched: Shrek 3 (Many says it isn't good but I love it. Has a special meaning for me and just laughing at the jokes itself its worth it. What more I had great company. *wink* I'll try to write my view - 'try' - if I can finish my workload)
Want to watch: Ocean 13 [Still waiting cos you all only want to watch transformers :( ]

Just listened: Edwin McCain - I could not ask for more
Now listening: Stacey Kent - You've got a friend (Addicted)

Grace : Joanne watch - 200 Pounds Beauty (K) - twice! ;) hahaha Truly good!

My week started superb - cos how much does is cost for me to walk into office on monday morning and discovered a box of beautifully wrap with ribbons - REAL BELGIAN chocolates - on the table.

Answer: Priceless!

BTW Monday Lunch - Bunnie is guilty so is Excalibur Ho - sigh - friends!! Btw, TNT is also a type of chemical reaction! *wink**wink*

LOL... mom and Jojo's coming back tonight. Great, can't wait... I meant great mom is coming back. Er Jojo... I am not too sure... hehehe.. maybe Huijing is.. me.. ok I try to be! hehehe Love you sis - welcome home!

Sunshine's Blog

2007-06-24T11:08:00.000-07:00

You wrote!! You wrote!! Huray!! :)

Congrats...

http://me-bobo.blogspot.com/
Sigh!

You sms: Dinner I had Jap, Ice Cream Gelare and now Tea Halia!

See bet you going to have Japanese in less than a month d!! Knew you can't survive without fine food one ler dear.. :) hahaha!

*Just me loving the fact I am RIGHT*

p/s: Broken the record of your drinking d? Don't fool them okie... ;)

Working

2007-06-24T10:57:00.000-07:00

Got lots to do this weekend - got a dateline tomoro and still lots of documents to read. So won't get to blog the things I want to say...

Outstanding Blog
1. What makes 26 years worth celebrating
2. For the record : (a) Robin & Eleena's Hutang Lists - (b)Ignore delisted and forgiven
3. Wii Night out!
4. LK's wedding pictures - can't decide jetpower, picasa and flick or something - Bless Me!
5. In My Country - the movie!

Lunch-ing with the 'African Bunny' and gang tomoro.. I am still highly suspicious what trick they going to pull this time. Still is going to be lunch full of laughters.

A Night About Beauty and Love

2007-06-22T10:00:00.001-07:00

Such a wonderful night out.. but am so tired and sleepy I need to zzz.. will write tomoro. My sleeping partner is barking at me d.... hehehe.. JoJo not in.. I get OREO all to myself!! Night and out!

Robin & Eleena Hutang List

2007-06-21T23:21:00.001-07:00

Aeroplane King and Queen -

Robin Hutang List

1. Lifetime supply of tea latte at coffee bean - redeemable at anytime

2. Lifetime supply of meals - redeemable at anytime

3. Alaska trip - if photos turn out badly - so means boh liau lor?

4. Australia Trip - Sand Sand on Melbourne Beach

5. Fishing Trip

6. Golfing

7. (3) Meals at Feringghi Grill

8. (1) Song on the Guitar - sheess.. now I gotto go thru the email to get the song title!

Eleena Hutang List( credit-able to Mr Chew Hunt Sun's Account)

1. (1) Japanese Meal

2. (1) Meal at Feringghi Grill

3. Big Birthday Present

4. (1) or (2) God Child/Children

5. (1) trip to Mauritius? Mana?

6. (1) Aunty cooked laksa

Good food, Beautiful Music, Great Company

2007-06-21T10:54:00.001-07:00

Today is F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!

I did my usual round at the Marina - I was hiding at HaiNan Town - scare incase Captain still wants to throw me into the sea. *wink**wink* [Note: in very cheeky mood today and probably a little drunk from the wine, if I don't make it to work tomoro you know is your fault my dear!]

Anyway anyway, had lunch at KIRISHIMA.. *huray* make up for yesterday's lost - and better still in the company of [usually Nikko the very Fun and Cheerful] but I experience a different Nikko today..er.. Probably Nikko the little Stressful and Hungry! Of course, lucky me there is Ivy to save the day. I got to say the food choice today is –YUMMY!! I love the pork she did… so so so nice! *salivating* Helps to elevate his mood! ;) Of course, you are a little quiet then usual – okie a lot more quiet but still was great company. I mean who else would listen to all my ‘moh lui’ ideas and then say ‘Jenn, finish one thing not start’ Yes Boss!! Yes Boss!! Still they are two great ideas right? Tempting, tempting! Hehehe! Still thinking of the pork… so good!

Return to office – HURAY boss just gave me a new assignment! He scare I bored! Hehehe.. a lot - a lot - a lot to read and do but something I truly enjoy doing thot! I guess is going to be a lot of staying up till wee mornings to finish still.

Had a truly interesting dinner date at Bagan tonight. ;) Well I am going to keep this bit to myself … still I should not have that calamari becos I am so full now. That Belgian Truffles Cake is ‘wicked’ in every sense. Hehehe. Well my only regret - you totally melt a box of REAL Belgian chocolate and then you forgot my Swiss chocolate. Hehehe! Anyway, thank you for a wonderful night and yes you still have to change my mind, good luck – note 21st June 2007!

Ok… going to hit the sack. Nikko’s word “ Jenn, sleeping at 2am is NOT going to get you up at 7am. It does not work.” How he knows? Of course, he sleeps at that time! Hehehehe! *wink**wink*

Looking forward to tomorrow night – I got a dinner date with Penang Most Eligible Bachelor, hehehe… right Mr.K? Thanks to my sister!! I still can’t find a gown to wear – sigh!

Btw btw, I manage to mix a very beautiful shade of lipstick color I been looking for today – Yen Wei – I still like that Channel color u have! Baby Grace and Yen Wei can you both come back quick – I need my consultants home – am little bored with the colors I have d. What’s in? What’s new? Update update!

What a day

2007-06-20T19:27:00.000-07:00

8am - What’s like woken up by a phone call of an angry man shouting on the other side? Well… that is what happen to me this morning – er.. poor thing that man? Cos I am not awake enough to understand what he is trying to say to me before he slams the phone. I must really still be floating plus the fact I am under the influence of ‘medication’. Poor Captain.. he must really be having a bad morning. Thot I got to say the whole event turn out to be pretty humorous for me!

Mhm.. anyway, is rather a S-L-O-W day for me, minus the fact that someone is so

i-n-c-o-n-s-i-d-e-r-a-t-e

to call and say

“Jenn, u going to the marina today, what about a drink at the Marina?”
"No No.. Captain won’t like to see me in the Marina.. not today and I don’t want to be throw into the sea. No thank you!"
*Noise* "Btw, oh am having a leg massage right now"

Can u believe it… all these “Anak Boss”, “Anak Dato’” and “Cucu Datuk” sigh…. I do have a job to keep my dear.. now you know why you were ‘/ignored’ for the rest of the day? Just kidding. I was busy when you called later.

Just as I finish my lunch, was settling down to work, my mobile rings – on screen *Daddy Darling* - “Ah Girl, we going to have lunch in Kirishima with Uncle John you wanna come?” OF COURSE I do… but … but… I just had my lunch… and I DO HAVE A JOB TO KEEP…arrrggghhh….I cannot take it anymore!

Thank God for dinner with Joanne and Jay – we went thru the 5000 pictures of Alaska. Have you tried to be the last customers at Chili’s to leave? That’s us *bow*. If you want to experience it, just loan my 5000 pictures and go have dinner there. Hehehe! Anyway, going thru the pictures make me float all over again. Quote Jay “If the lights in this restaurant blows out you still be glowing”. Joanne agrees, she says this is the best time to ‘tembak’ me of anything cos either slow response or no response. Of the fact that I was so cold and still sick...

Of course, then Robin and Eleena put me on aeroplane that night so does MalMal and PeiLing. I don't want to go thru the pictures again and again ...Sigh.. MalMal is busy writing on his new topic ‘Blogging Tips 101’. He is so smart that for the whole afternoon he has manage to come out with this..

Blogging 101 Tips
1. Learn how to type.
2.

And the fact that he has to do audit EARLY tomorrow morning, which PeiLing and I knew is a complete waste of time.. come on you don’t have to audit MalMal to know the fact that he won’t pass the quality test! Ooppsss… hahaha! Just kidding Mal. Just following my own tips of ‘Blogging Tips 101’ – choose a subject, tembak – my choice MalMal! Please don’t misunderstand, there is always this love-hate relationship going on for me and MalMal since we belong to the square group ie. JenJen, MeiMei, DanDan ;)

Anyway I love the close of the day, Daniel’s #Summon for PK’s bachelor’s party! I read about the ‘lap-dancer’ somewhere ... Jin is so not letting PK attends his bachelor’s party. Then again… Dan is organizing.. how ‘notti’ can the bachelor’s party be? Oh no.. I forgot.. the fact that he is now a married man – did you heard those ‘hokkien’ word he uses last time in his house… hehehe… I still love you son!

Goodnight people for being in another unusual day of my life.. Let us hope Captain is not calling me again tomorrow morning. :)

Btw, Daniel's Blogging Tips 101 : Picure's magic word is PICASA!

For the record -

2007-06-19T10:43:00.001-07:00

Malcolm just msn text me -

For your record Jenn : I DON'T complain about Everything!

See you start complaining d! Hehehe ~ then you complain more and then you bully me.. :~(

I am going to bed... unfair bully a sick little girl! hehehe

k k.. at least got nice sweet wishes, concern and care for the fact I am sick!

*hugs* Night night Mal2!

A little unwell

2007-06-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

Feeling a little feverish today so I am not going to write long... need to rest.

Part of our conversation today -
You text today - So how's things going on in Pen?
I said - Pen is rainy cos sunshine is in Perth and I am a little sick
You replied - Sunny here but 5 Degrees. Damn Cold. You better take care….

You know what, I was in the Marina again today and it drizzling rain. It so cold and the berth was moving like a ship *hint**hint* I will feel exactly like I am in Alaska if I have your 5 degrees. See am still dreaming! When Captain shouted at me today I actually was not computing what he was saying at all. Poor soul! I meant he was so upset but I was just looking at him smiling and my mind was so away in Alaska. I think Shah was thinking, gosh what’s got into Jenn. Is she on weed or something. :)

Is a long day today… interesting… I got a new idea… I want to do something very interesting… sigh Nikko is going to give me that look and shake his head. Then after that long stare, I am going to pretend not knowing why and ask “What?”. Hehehe! Then he will give me one of his loving brotherly advice ‘Jenn, you just have so many things you wanna do but you not going to finish any! Start one and just stick to one!’ Oppss… ya because each time JennJenn want to learn something new Nikko Tan is going to have a lot of trouble. Lesson 101 photography, Lesson 101 Photoshop, Lesson 101 Coralsuite, Lesson 101 Server Hosting, Lesson 101 Creativity and on and on and on. Notice everything stops at 101! Hahaha! Right Sir? And yes Sir I will try to sleep early, I meant if I sleep about the time you sleep every night is consider early right? ;)

K..K.. I’ll share my ideas tomorrow night… and not bad mah… my blog already inspired our dear ‘youngman’ – little voice (I assure you thot he might be a little child-like {I used child LIKE huh*wink*} but then at times he is this very egoist, macho guy I know that is one of the best Wii players we ever seen)

MalMal yes you are also one of the person complaining about my outdated blog! But then again… nothing special cos you complain about EVERYTHING all the time one mah! Hehehe.. I can sense some more noise in my mailbox tomorrow.
Okie okie – sorry! You are this master know all Guru that I admire so much! Love your blog. Can you teach me to do the picture thing? Pretty Please!! I am going to do the link thing for the Wii Entry tomorrow.

Gotto go sleep now…tired and sick… I promise someone I will eat the medicine he brought for me and for the record I did dear – this morning and before I go to bed now. Hopefully I wake up feeling better tomorrow. :)

On Saturdays -

2007-06-18T09:33:00.000-07:00

How do I spend my weekends?

This is a question I get from a lot of people. Well I don't know, Penang is not excactly a place for it. Okie okie... I'll not start.. but this is what I do for fun most of the time - let the picture tells!

So ya right... during my Saturday I have the joy of - okie let me choose my words -
Looking, supervising, managing, advising, playing, criticizing, disturbing
JOJO’s marketing strategy meeting! ;) Where? At moi's second home of course!

It’s just out of fun – but wanted you guys to know you all did a great job with those ideas and books. I love it! Terence how come in Acknowledgement above Photographer don’t have Advisor: Jenn Lim one? ;) hehehe! Check this out :

http://terencekung.multiply.com/photos/album/67

Well Adam.. Adam.. you are indeed one of a kind! I don’t know… but I am still applying to be your manager and market you for ads! You are indeed a na-tu-rel!
I love his analogy on his relationships with ‘we-know-who’ and you certainly make me laugh and filled my Saturday with your humor.

Dawn – you look beautiful! Tired of people saying that to you d? hahaha… still my dear – yes you are that natural beauty, sweet and stunning.

JoJo, my dearest – what to say – I am very proud of you. I can see the effort and creativity you put into the business all these months. I admire the way you think and talk – you proven your ideas and capabilities. What more can a sister ask – ah yes – a raise in my salary? Hahaha! Kidding! Congratulations is such a job well done!

Terence you going to deserve a whole entry by yourself after the transformation work you’ve done to your student. Hehehe! Anyway I have got more good news for you.. lets share it over our dinner this week. :)

p/s: Nikko just send me this site - so cool - can JoJo come out with something like that ah?

What Makes Me - Happy, Hyper and High!

2007-06-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

What makes a happy, hyper and high JennJenn? Here comes the discovery -

I wake up early this morning to get to work - little restless and sleepy - hehehe

Monday blues was still on me...and then my phone sms beep *nokia tune* ah.. was the continuation of the sms battle last night that reads and “invitation for Pangkok Laut with Spa and Massage as a treat”. Sigh, my dear… you really don’t really realize I have a job to keep huh? :) hahaha

Concentrate Jenn Concentrate – with a Capital C –

Then my email beep *you ve got mail* ah... my friend from San Francisco emailed me – it reads Subject: ‘European Trip’ and part of the email read “Well GREECE, …tell me whether you are game for that. Sometime at the end of June or July should be a good time for us to go. We better finalize by Jan’08…if you invite one more friend …”

*Jenn you need to read, understand, comprehend the contract* ;)

As I did that – a man walks in – and says ‘Ms Jennifer? X asks me to deliver this to you… and guess what - It a large cup of tea latte from Coffee Bean – gosh with a message written on the coffee bean napkin. Hahaha! How sweet. How original. I was grinning crazy and not knowing how to react. Thank you so much my dear you don’t know how much it makes me day. It certainly keeps me as hyper as you are the whole day. Well it makes me double happy with double vanila ceylon. You know what makes me triple happy? Tomorrow instead of your driver/office boy sending latte- you can send your PA over and do my work and then I’ll go have tea latte with you. You won’t complain I won’t have tea with you then. Hahaha.. and yes very likely you going to answer me the same thing you said to me the last time – you can’t send your PA over because you needed her to finish your work so that you can go and buy tea. :) and I still do have a job to keep *wink**wink*

Then I headed down the Marina to do some work and Wendy called to wish – "Jenn Happy Belated Birthday". Yes Yes Yes... she knew she’s in trouble for forgetting, right dear? Hahaha… k.. k.. you are forgiven! Anyway she says – I am moving to Jakarta in January so please come stay with me and spend some time. Ah.. Another holiday invitation!

End up having lunch in Kirishima (ya again) with an aunty who says – Jenn you want to go to Mauritius; I still have got my time sharing portion in a hotel I bought, let me take you along. OH MY GOD!! Of course I do.. hehehe!

Jenn’s Prayer -
Dear God, are you sending me a sign that I need another vacation? Or are you testing me to see if I give in to all these seduction of holidays. Well you know me… I’ll give in! ;) hahaha…Greece… Jakarta… Mauritius… I am coming!

And therefore I am still hyper, super happy and excited from the first day of my week. What makes JennJenn happy, hyper and high? Tea latte from coffee bean and a list of vacation invitations! Okie – Tea Latte! :) I am still grinning ;)

End of a Sweet Week.. Weekend

2007-06-17T10:29:00.000-07:00

Just finished reading: Paulo Coelho's The Witch of Portobello
Currently Reading: Jared Diamond's Collapse and Dr John F Demartini's The Heart of Love

Just watched: 200 Pounds Beauty (K) - Grace's genius recommendation & Pirates of the Carribbean
Want to watch: Shrek 3 & Ocean 13 (Grace Grace when you coming back?)

Just listened: Edwin McCain - I could not ask for more
Now listening: Stacey Kent - You've got a friend

So this week is done ... another amazing week of my life... is really a quiet weekend for me... so glad. Yes quiet weekend comes rare for moi! :) At least is a lot of things cleared and done - all emails communication replied (sorry guys I knew the mails was sitting there a long long time), I renew this blog and fill it up a little, manage to edit my Canada/Alaska picture from 5000-3000 (what an achievement), spending lots of time with Dad and Mom also had a lot of time for follow up reading!!

Only regret to is miss Wii Gathering this week @ Dan's. Next week is in my house guys! Lets get some Wii action!! hahaha...

Outstanding:

Pictures, pictures, pictures.... the girls and Terence is so going to kill me! *blek*

Honor Thy Father!

2007-06-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

"The word 'Thanks' seems inadequate for someone who contributed so much to molding my character and shaping my future " ~ Joseph E. Falkner

Today is Father's Day... how is best to celebrate Father's day? Is to have 3 nights celebration with good food, in the loving company of the world best fathers! :) To sit, listen and see the world through their eyes for once.

First night was my birthday dinner celebration actually, but these 3 wonderful goddads walk in and smiling happily - what’s the occasion? Are we celebrating an early Father’s Day? :) How lovely when the look of regret and guilt filled their faces when they totally forgot that it is your birthday and the effort they take to ‘secretly’ and ‘industriously’ get you an ‘ang pow’ is just pure joy to my heart.

Of course the 2nd night was the official father’s day celebration on the Father’s day eve with the children in the ‘father’s choice’ Chinese restaurant. Ending with the hang out at moi’s house because they insisted of watching ‘Winners’ (is that OLD OLD BAND) the Hong Kong band playing on AEC’s Taiwanese Award while complimenting which current female singer is prettier. Of course they conclude the night by challenging each other to Wii – my latest gift for my dad n mom – yes yes from Daniel’s kind recommendation ( he keep reminding me that! Okie okie.. next Wii Gathering my house)

And then today – of course the Actual father’s day – they proven themselves ‘filial father’ as they give in to their children’s choice of Japanese Food at the infamous Kirishima. Lol – is truly amazing to see the extend they love us their children – clearly just by the choice of food they eat. They don’t even like Japanese Food… hahahaa.. :) and then we ended up in Haagen Daaz for ice cream daddy will scream paying more than RM6 for each scope!! hahaha!! Fathers!!

Anyway for my dad, to me the greatest dad in the world – high in demand of many! :) Happy Father’s Day – I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY.

p/s: Grace am so tempted to put the picture of your dad in taken in Bayview earlier this year. haha.. but I am going to get killed if I do that :)

The Song Dedication: You've Got A Friend

2007-06-17T00:20:00.000-07:00

The song that was playing while the plane fly across and I thot it just timely even thot you prefer the song that was playing before that :) Got to thank Ah Teik for sending the cd to me just that very night! Is still playing for me everyday now.. :)

You've Got A Friend

When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand
and nothing, whoa, nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there
to brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
you've got a friend.

If the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow,
keep your head together and call my name out loud.
Soon you hear me knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there.

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend? People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you. Well, they'll take your soul if you let them,
oh yeah, but don't you let them.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call, Lord, I'll be there,
yeah, yeah, you've got a friend. You've got a friend.

Ain't it good to know you've got a friend. Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
Oh, yeah, yeah, you've got a friend.

A Promise

2007-06-16T21:39:00.000-07:00

I know I know... its a little more than delayed.... but still a promise is a promise therefore it must be kept..

Part of this writings as abstracted from Jenn’s Journal Entry #*** -
On board HongKong-Vancouver - May 2007

Is a quiet, uneventful early morning and I am on my way to Canada. Only hustle bustle was at the airport but all events are kind of deaf to my ears. Probably becos I was sleepy from the night of staying up. ;) I told myself as usual I can sleep on the plane. Furthermore I can't contain all the excitment I feel in myself... finally I am making it to Canada and Alaska - the last frotier on earth. :) At the same time I can't help it.. to feel this tingling sense of pain and regrets in my heart. The gloominess as I know when I return back to Malaysia I shall already have Hong left for Perth. It not ever going to be the same anymore for Penang without Hong Hong.

Who is Hong? Mhm for those who already know him well enough I need not elaborate further and for those who doesn’t - what a waste for not getting to know such a beautiful soul that exist in the plane on earth. Our friendship take us back to year 2002 .. faithfully on Hong’s grandma’s funeral – yes what an event to bring two people together. :) Anyway our friendship just blossom after that – from gym, to tea, to mamak, to golf, to holidays we just kept enjoying each others company. I left on 2004 for Australia and we still kept in touch. Of course there is always Hong sending me to airport, picking me up from airport when I commute in between the two countries, throwing some surprise back home visit for my parents, mamak – coffee bean hang out - fine dining – theater n shows – golf - and some crazy times in SS! Hahaha! It’s all about food, drinks and entertainment!

Of course there is a time when he did not keep his promise of coming to see me in Aussieland instead he spends some good holidays in Switzerland, Europe and Korea and show off all those beautiful fun pictures later! Then again what to do Aussie is not Europe. ;) hehehe.. [Score one]

Part of the joy we enjoy in each other’s company is of course ‘tembaklogy’ which makes more fun if Ash, PK, Eugene, Kheng Lee or Eng Leong is around becos then Hong don’t always have to be my target? Right? What to do you da only one who lets me tembak and never shoot back until recently… until recently he tembaks me more than I do d. hahaha And those things they like to do without me around and then show off all the fun times without me later.. sigh…Then again you have to have the group to be so crazy enough to drive straight to Genting after clubbing 3am at night with not prior planning or drive all the way to Melaka for daddy’s meeting and then F1 race method back to KL to make it in time for theater in Bangsar or just drive to Tambun for seafood like every other weekend? *wink**wink* all those good memories! Oh.. oh.. or you can just leave for America for 3 months without planning for soul searching –That’s the spontaneous Hong I know.
Another best part of our friendship is – Eleena Ong. My soul sister and partner in crime in making Hunt Sun’s life a little more fun than it is! Hahaha… putting me and Lena together is a very unwise decision for Hong but of course a blessing for me and Eleena. We click from the very first time we meet, of course having a common ‘target’ - "Hong" - until I ended up being Lena’s bridemaid for her wedding last year and hopefully Godma to her child – next year? *hint**hint*

When we were having lunch with my parents about 2 months ago Hong drop the news – I am leaving for Perth. Then only I realize how much it affects me for you to go. I still remember calling you one afternoon and say I realize in the morning while driving to work how much I am going to miss you while you gone. Cos there will be no more driving at night or wee hours in the morning, no one to know how to order my tea in coffee bean ( hahaha and the fact that you not going to have coffee bean there to enjoy our new favorite tea! I miss that part for you), no more amazing sound system in car that plays a selection of my favorite songs and a manual skip machine(Hong) to skip the songs that I don’t enjoy *wink**wink* and the pillows in the car. I also have to find new tea mates, new cinema mates, new theater/show mates, driving mates so susah! Hehehehe! I miss my all-in-one!

However, what is best about my best buddy here is that you truly shown me over these years of friendship what unconditional love is. You never demanded me to be different, to change or tell me what to do or what should I become – more or less. You always, ALWAYS love me for who I am. That type of faith and trust you have in me touch my heart beyond words. When I am down or sad, I only need to make a call, and you will be here with your cool car and amazing sound system (which he ‘invested’ A LOT of $$$ in) hahaha, we head to get two tropical passion tea latte – not even one word being said to each other, we just drive and drink and listen to music and then you will send me home with a big bear hug. You are always there when I am down. I came to realize this year after a soul searching journey last year that even when I was at my worse character, you were there, not judging. Where everyone else was wanting to me ‘change’ or make the ‘right’ decision you trusted me enough for me to make my choice. That trust is now I know what I been searching for. You make the space to allow me to be who I want to be. When everyone else busy throwing advice on what I should do and become - you were just there for me always as a friend.

Hong, now that you gone to away to Perth, is just ain’t the same. Yes me taking for granted the fact I always have someone to call if I am in trouble. Thot all that said, I just wanted to you know I truly appreciate our friendship. We truly two halves of a Gemini twins. :) I am very proud of you making this decision. I want you to know I know how much courage you took out to make this one step. And this time I am going to trust you like how you trusted me. I return the other day from Vancouver and for the first time I look down and saw the street we stop by the last night watching the planes flew by. I knew I am returning to a Penang without you in it yet am happy you are doing so well in Perth. I am just happy.. happy for you.

This blog is a special dedication to ... Mr Bill Cheah GH

2007-06-16T00:56:00.001-07:00

To you.......

Just got off the phone with you dear… sigh.. now I don’t know how.. to miss Alaska more or you more…hehehe.. after talking all about Alaska and my trip. ;) Er…er… I miss… A…A… of course I miss Ah Hong Hong more! ;)

I been cracking head to find a gift for you for your birthday .. promise I did I shop the whole Gurney Plaza wanting to find something of significant.. I guess I failed. Penang is just not the place huh? Okie okie.. kidding!

And then I receive a very special birthday present myself yesterday – indeed the most special birthday present this year from a very wonderful friend.

“A gift of ‘Nothing’ for a person who has Everything.”

Mhm… apparently a gift of Nothing can be brought from Bangkok right? ;)

So at night with a cuppa tea I slowly recalled of all my trips to Bangkok.. I don’t remember ‘Nothing’ was sold there as I always have Something to buy.

Then I began to relax… slowly thots began to leave me one by one… until I have Nothing in my mind... I tried to contain Nothing to give to you… but thus it’s truly difficult. So I fell asleep.

When I woke up this morning.. I don’t remember Anything… except of course it’s your birthday and I still have Nothing to give to you.

So my dearest Hong, I still have Nothing to give … only this little part of me that shall always be with you… This blog as a special dedication to you on your birthday, (as a promise I shall write before you leave, a little later but now more meaningful right? *wink**wink*) –

For my best friend, my twin –

Many Happy Returns of the Day. May you continue to be blessed with the unconditional love you been giving. May you continue to shine like the lights you always shone on me. For you know, no star glows if the sun refuse to shine and yet no one can see the star if the sun continue to shine all the time and you my darling knows the difference. You shall always be the sunshine of my life!

Your little star
-JennJenn-

RENEW

2007-06-16T00:46:00.000-07:00

re·new

1. to begin or take up again, as an acquaintance, a conversation

2. to make, say, or do again

3. to revive; reestablish

4. to recover

5. to begin again; recommence.

This blog starts last year with a purpose, now no longer in line with my life, with that same intention and a different goal I am renewing this blog... therefore I kept only the first two entries as memory and erase the rest..

With this, just like my life, let this blog begins A NEW....

The Different Walk

2006-12-01T17:44:00.001-08:00

Mhm today's day started rather interesting. I started with some audio tapes, and it reminded me that how important it is to live with our intuition and believing that is working for my highest self. That everything is happening as it should and we are not to worry because even in chaos all is good and well.

To also get rid of 'I hope' and replace with 'I wonder', to not be concern of endings but just be at the moment.

The I start my routine wash up again... this time I tried a different thing. I put my toothbrush into the right side first instead of like I use to put in the left side first. I wash my head from forehead and then to other areas instead of starting with my right cheek. :)

Then to my second day of walk - during today's walk I don't feel as peaceful as yesterday's walk. I am thinking hard instead of being there. I dun see as much insect on the floor as I notice instead I saw many more butterflies and I heard the birds and vechical driving past me. My mind also wonder of a lot...

If I am to learn from this walk - rather than labeling my self is an unsuccessful walk my insights are:

1) Don't be too hard. Don't make the walk suppose to feel a certain way just be there with the walk

2) My mind jump even to this title of the journal before I am here writing and what to write in here. My mind progess to the future than I next time should be there at my walk and be here when I write. No to write what I think of just now. :)

3)Some insect bite me during the walk - this time I give thanks! For probably I am feeding them with food and they are teaching me to be more aware of my body. LOL!

So that's for today.. :)

The start of the journey of getting to know myself

2006-11-30T17:45:00.000-08:00

I have decided to start blogging again... this time with my inner identity as I start this process of getting to know myself.

Last week I started the concentration meditation on one task excercise that my mentor gave me. I notice how much I have improve in one week. I notice I woke up with some jumble thots in my mind, when I brush my teeth I usually starts from my left outer teeth. Last time I cannot even be bothered. Today I notice if I wash my face I start with right side then I slowly venture the wash all over my face instead of just rubbing it all over and splashing water all over it later. I am no longer in a rushing mind to finish an activity even an activity I first deem as simple as washing my wash. I did that when I start to take my bath too. I become more aware of myself.

I also started my first walk, was not too bad for me, I can concentrate for a period of time before this idea of a blog came to me. I still keep concentrating with faster steps and kept walking.... interesting I'll see how I do tomoro.